depotguy's blog post - We all have the capacity to change

A few days ago I called my father's house for a recipe I'd lost.
It wasn't any big deal and I thought he'd call me back and we'd chat and he'd give me the recipe. While I was out he left the whole thing on my answering machine. Very detailed and patient.
When i got home and was listening to it I was struck by how much he loves me.For some of you that wouldn't be a very revolutionary thought but for us....it's something. I never thought I would share something like this in a blog. I guess I undermined the power sharing your thoughts and feelings can be.
When my father found out I was gay he disowned me. No, worse than that...he told people in my hometown (I'd been gone about threeyears) that I'd been killed in a car accident. After about three years he arranged for us to sit down face to face, just us.
When i walked into the living room he was sitting on the couch, not his usual chair. On the table in front of him was a 357 magnum gun. We sat in silence for over an hour. Then he picked up the gun and said " If I ever loved you at all I would kill you right now"
I sometimes think of that moment as the time I became a man.
I simply looked at him and said " If you feel that strongly about it you'd better do it."
He started to cry and I left. After a few more years we started to talk and now he calls me to give me recipes for cranberry
cookies.
I guess I wanted to share this to remind people not to give up.
All of us have the capacity to forgive,and to change. I hope you all find joy this holiday season.