dziga's blog post - A Merry Year!!!

One more week and I will have made it through a calendar year without a drink or drug for the first time in 20 + years. Astounding to me.

I came into AA two years ago and attempted to do the same thing last year. I was completely committed to doing it. I remember my conviction on January 1 of 2006.…I found out that I could not do it. Life without it was just not possible for me to endure at that point. Three or four relapses in 2006, all before January 24. Each relapse was significantly more than a fifth. I remember waking up on January 24 and being so desperate for a drink…going through all the empty bottles in my room and trying to suck every drop of alcohol out of them that I could.

I remember thinking last year at this time that I had dropped down from somewhere around 4000 drinks the year before down to a 150 or so during my relapses. Now down to 0. The temptation has rarely even raised its head this year. It baffles me that it has been relatively easy this year and that I am comfortable and actual enjoy being sober. That is something that was impossible for me.

It is a Merry Christmas and was a Happy Year.

Onto new things this year with a great deal of optimism!!! Hope you can all go into this year with the same!!!