Im just going to keep this short as I can but I have my doubts.

Im not mad at any one person here. You all have lives to lead and what have you. There have been great people here and some that wished not to talk and so on. I seen great pictures along the way.

I have been here for nearly 3 1/2 years. In those three years i seen massive changes from the few members I saw in this website to the nearly 50 or so that I saw today.

There have been a few shocks along the way, but nothing too bad. Some of it was great along the way.

But, now not because of the site, maybe because of fatigue - lack of pictures wrong state or what not - I haven't been lucky here in this site then I had in other places.

To make things a bit clearer, I'm straight as an arrow not bi or anything. But when i get more transsexuals in all of my IM accounts than females I'm just taken aback (not that there is anything wrong with Transsexuals if that's what one wants) Most of the females i have delt with in NN has been some of the nicest i have met in years - but none of them has gone towards a relationship of any kind. When it also comes to this TS/GG issue I have had a talking relationship with three Trans-women (that hasn't gone as far as you might be thinking) than those that I had have in NN (outside of Trucksforfucks and Pushitinme) or any other place i been (tt and others) The only female i been close with since I started in NN and these sites was in RateMyPinkbits and she and I were closer to bf and gf than anything else until 2 and 1/2 years ago when she became close to some other guy and later married him. Were still good friends to this day.

I first came here very depressed and looking for friends and company mostly. I had lost a very close family member in 2000, and lost what should have been my wife in 2002. I changed my life because of these tragedies. Because I was still scared mostly of showing my self (until i felt I had something in NN) I didnt show my pic. I did everything else though.

But now i feel most of the people I know in NN are gone and those i tried to get with are not available at this time and even though that if one day I want to show my pic (they say that I am not ugly) i even doubt i will get anywhere. Im 26 years old and i gave it my best shot.

So, I'm gonna be shutting it down bit by bit. If i find someone interesting I'm gonna continue on in NN but now i have my doubts. I have been thinking about going to see those ts i have mentioned before. Now don't get me wrong - I'm not gay and never will be. But I have to be with people that give a damn about me. And not just shut me out. Trust me on this - even if I did show my pic the issue wouldn't change. I could have a degree, a good job, all the amenities of life... Not a thing would change.

So I will be back a few times every month... But i have my doubts I would find anyone that would at least talk with me or any one I'm interested in. Ill still check yall out... But i think is best right now to go where the respect and the understanding is.

I wish all of you the best... Ill be back, ill just make a few pm's here and then well we will see where the wind blows.

James

Honestly, some say you didn't do much...but this is more than enough. The girls here are great, many interests and many good pics. And at least I don't have to worry now if she is with somebody or not, which makes things easer for me, because if theres one thing i don't do at all, is screw with another man's gf/wife/etc.

However, matters pertaining to Gaming (as the new fangled X-Box 360 Elite members would say) has gotten to me. So lets make things very clear. I was very hopeful when what is now called the WII, was called Revolution, since Sony was messing up. Now its a white hot hate. I cant stand the WII, the Japanese now cant stand it until the next WII Fit fad arrives, its only the Western lands are so enamored with wii. I have no idea.

DS? Until they get Dread (if y'all don't know, that's Metroid Dread), Im never touching that perverts toy for crap. If you don't believe me, go look at Gametrailers sometime this next two weeks, and tell me what you see?

360... I was, and emphasis on the word WAS, indifferent about the console. But my indifference has turned into a mild hatred. First off, 10 to 30% of the consoles die within 6 months of the day of purchase...and whats even worse, customer service is so fucking banal. They have 7 different aspects of the same console (with different processor dies and the rest, and the cheapest one you can get most games can be played on. Thats not the worst of it...

PS2 I have nearly 20 games on it, and it is the greatest system ever made. Bar none.

PSP, the next in line to be the greatest system ever made. 3 games, but my first one was stolen...Getting a new one on friday...

This leads me to-

PS3. Now this system has all the makings of the future. Eye(Toy2) Home, TV downloads, Cheap PSN games, PS1 Games on the cheap, Rumble Based controller, and did i mention the games?

But its gonna suffer before its even gonna show its greatness.

20% of that is Sony's fault. But its growing pains and they want movies to matter again (come on, i mean lets look at most of the profiles here, they all watch movies at least...)

50% goes to the rest of the gaming industry. They want to go back to Ninty's days...of censorship. God damn why do you want to go back to taking off CROSSES in Castlevania? Its even worst in Germany, where they have DEBALLED that industry (and that country ) so much its haven for the fucking wii. That was the house that built Ramstein...and you playing DS's and WII? what the fuck is wrong (well some have to get Halo-illegally from the Netherlands) I dont want to have to come home one day and get my games I want to play from Mexico or Brazil since the commies have there panties in a bitch over Metal Gear Solid 4. I dont want to go as far as I want to go...

But the last 30% goes to these non-gamers...I dont know if I should hate them or ignore them. I dont want to see grandmama playing away her golden years, instead of telling stories how she was making warships back in WWII, or like in my grandmothers instance, how she bucked the system and she and other women will never have to pay any taxes...ever (my father was born in another land) Womens rights? They started it, and the...well you get the idea. But back to the wii, she shouldnt be doing that...

But thats the thing, they expand the market...to where? I dont know...and I dont like where its heading.

My only worry is that I have to take a year break from gaming sites just so i can play the story of MGS4, its that important...but will it matter if the majority of fans, dont have a PS3? If it fails, im out of the VG business. One, its costing me money, two- school fees, and three i want to move to SC in a few years. But i hope it doesnt at all. I still want to play...but it isnt worth 400 to get in...and dealing with ms and there crap to get in or ninty and there geisha music to get in...

(even though this is posted on April Fools, im not fooling)

Ok, just to make it clear. I'm a nice guy. Sure i have my low points but looking for somebody isn't one of them. We have seen worse and done even more dangerous than the bondage fans, but Im not against that- if that fits you it matters not in my eyes.

I been here a few years. of and on recently. I met one good person here in NN several months back (she knows who she is, but im not telling) it was fun. I really liked her. However....

And yes...However.

I find out she had a bf.

Now one thing with me and its paramount to me- if you single, that means to me the girl has no bf and i wish to talk. The reason for this is because i'm no home wrecker, and i dont want to come between two people in a relationship for any reason whatsoever. If you have a bf, or a gf if your hardcore bi- I would like to be your friend but anything bigger than that, no way unless you have amcally ended the relationship. Its that simple. I haven't had a gf and never had a sexual relationship with any girl. Thats not because I tried. I TRIED. And folks- when it comes to easy the tri-state dont come any easier. But folks, its much worse- from missing proms to creeks and all that the girls have tried but i didnt give in. The reason why? Cheap Thrills. Sure i like that but cheap thrills are just that. I dont even LIKE those girls in those days in a sexual manner so it was a waste of time. They wernt pretty, and so on. These days, I was proven right. Many of the girls here are nice, hard working. I just want you to be honest about your avialiblity. Just dont go and put single and looking for a guy/dont care who but then have a bf. Dont diminish the dude you love. Hes already being diminished by the damn media, the fucking government and so on. You might be the only thing keeping him from going and growing very cynical of the life his leading.

But if your single truly and honestly, and want to have fun, im your guy. Im very passionate when it comes to this. I have lost so much in this life and this is not being "emo" i'm being honest. I have many friends (girls, and TS's) who want to be with me but since they escort its not gonna happen. I have ts's who dont escort, but since i have family problems almost at a daily basis (where my parents are getting on in years I have no kids and I doubt i will ever have one) its getting to be impossible to see if I ever will have sexual relations and relationships with them. See, at one time- I would have NEVER EVER EVER been caught dead with a one. BUT DEATH can do allot to a man. Aloughth my wish and my preference is to give my virginity to a girl who a like deeply- the way most girls treat me like im the bad guy (irl) and the way my TS friends have treated me if it happens with one i will deal with it as it arrives and the consequences. So what if other guys call me That word. It doesn't even matter. I will still have my morality (I dont drink, smoke, do drugs never killed anybody and am deeply religious) and have a relationship with a person that gives a damn about me because I am loyal to myself and my works. Thats all.

So if any girl is single but has a bf she doesn't like and is lying just to get off I pay her no mind until she works it out with her bf and we become friends, or she dumps him and we become more than that. Most guys should do the same but im not most guys.

So those are the ground rules with me.

Oh, one more thing. isn't it strange that i can show my cock but not my face... because people will reconise my face...it just strange your more safe with a part that most people dont see but when its your face...you lose your job etc...its just so strange.