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as of this writing, I have had no further luck in making myself orgasm solo *sigh* but I'm still giving it the old college try. I think I'll make a breakthrough sometime soon. I woke up yesterday morning and I was orgasming, for some unknown reason. it was like the female equivalent of a wet dream. I totally see what all the fuss is about: if I could wake up to that everyday, I would. I probably wouldn't procrastinate about going to bed either. if anybody has any toy recommendations, I'd love to hear them. I have tried using toys before but they didn't do much for me. my lack of interest could be tied to my ignorance of the product :/ I think there is a toy out there for me that will do the trick, I just haven't stumbled upon it yet.

I'm starting to adapt to few hours of sleep which is *not* a good sign, in my opinion. I can get about 4 hours of sleep and be at a functional level. I don't think this is the best strategy when it comes to taking exams so I'm gonna do something to fix this.

I got an award at school for academic achievement much to my chagrin, I don't have a date. I doubt I'll show up with one either. I had a meeting for entrance to a masters degree program at my university. through some kind of consortium agreement, I can take graduate level courses during my senior year, given that I maintain a 3.0 GPA (mine is a lil higher than that) apply those credits to my grad degree and after obtaining a bachelors degree, I'll have my masters a year later.

I'm looking forward to grad school; it's not that I'm not enjoying myself at all right now but I feel like I can't relate to a lot of my classmates. a lot of them are younger than I am, so that may have something to do with it. [[I usually get along wonderfully with my professors/instructors but it's not as though I can go out for drinks with them. at least, not until I graduate.]]

here's an example: there is a girl I've spoken with on campus. we live close to each other, which is how I know her; I'm not in any classes with her. she tends to talk about herself a lot. I'll call her Jennifer. she's a perfectly nice girl but she's a little strange. the first week I knew her, she told me all sorts of info about herself. she told me that she's 21, she's a History major and is minoring in Creative Writing and Philosophy. she wants to be a librarian. she wrote a book and nobody offered to publish it, so she did it herself on Amazon. she's 4'11" and 130 lbs. she told me she gained a lot of weight when she was put on anti-depressants. (she's been diagnosed with depression; her mother thinks that depression is a made-up disease.) she briefly converted to Islam when she dated a man who is Muslim. he wanted her to break off contact with her friends and family so they stopped dating.

now Jennifer has never asked me anything about myself. she doesn't know my name, my age or my major. today I ran into her and she told me that she's "in love" with one of her professors but she's "not sure if he feels the same way" about her. lol, I wonder if I said things like that when I was 21?

her dad is hott. at least I think he's her dad. I wouldn't approach him, since he's married.

I also got my passport recently, so I'll be able to travel abroad next spring. does anybody have any ideas or suggestions? I'm thinking of studying in South America at the moment.

and that's all I got for now

h0tcumm0dity*