she's there... in my thoughts.. always somewhere in the back of my mind... i just realized tonite i can't make it (her) go away... lord knows i've tried if only to protect myself ...it's been months....i can't do it anymore ...that is put up the i don't care defense.. i do care tremendously....i can't help it and i can't shut that off...it's there and it's there strongly ... she is not replaceable....so now what??? i have no clue... i do know for a fact that i love her