yup today i had the day off... the first day off in 500 years woooooo hooooooo.... the boys were in school.... paul was @ work... it was exactly what i needed .. did some errands this morn and then plopped my ass on the couch with some chinese food, my book, and the remote to switch between stupid talk shows and stupid soaps.. exquisite i tell you....but.... there always has to be the but you know...
it was so quiet and silent that as the day wore on i realized the phone had only rang once and that was my mom calling this morn.... i thought someone surely called when i was out... a quick check to the caller id told me nope.....scrolling further i realized i haven't had any calls in forever well from anyone to just rattle....
i'm not really bothered by this but it got me to thinking who has been in my life lately and what happened to those relationships ... i still have my best friend in the whole wide world ... but with work and kids and such we don't talk as much as we used to .... but the ones that have come and gone .. the ones i used to be really close to that because of circumstance we are more of acquaintances now .... and just to be clear i'm talking g/f's that you just bitch to, laugh with, share your dreams, thoughts, whatever with....
i kind of have to pull back sometimes and wonder sheesh is there something wrong with me??? i used to be surrounded by people all the time... maybe i'm just getting older and tired of the bullshit of always trying to make everyone happy??? maybe i'll never know....
i think if it is me and i'm some bitchy freak i'll probably never change this late in life lol ... i'll just stick with the if paul and the boys are happy all is great, grand, and wonderful...
happy friday everyone.... mwa wtoc jacq
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