hippiebob's blog post - just pissed off and angry all the time

Tuesday, December 24, 2019, 4:16:48 PM

i watch a lot of Netflix shows, i don't have a regular TV, i've noticed how liberal shows have become, even on something like Netflix.
what pisses me off is the amount of sex scenes they have in these shows. oh, not cuz i'm a prude or whatever, i used to like watching shit like that, my wife and i used to watch porn quite a bit. but since losing her and being unable to find a woman to be friends with and possibly have sex with---watching it on shows, even on Netflix is pissing me off to no end.
if that's not bad enough, any time i go somewhere and happen to see a couple, fuck that, it makes me angry too...oh, and see an attractive, sexy woman, especially in tight jeans, that just breaks my spirit.
i really don't want to spend the rest of my life alone. hell, i don't even masturbate, what's the use to that? i'm alone with my memories and that's bad enough, but alone and not sharing pleasure with a woman...with the idea i will be alone for the rest of my life (?)...well that's a living hell.

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Metroplex on 25-Dec-19 8:58:25

Sorry for your loss but at least you had a woman, I'm 41 and I've never been in a relationship, not because I don't want to, it just didn't happen for me I guess. I'm sure you'll find a woman eventually, you just have to be patient and not get angry or depressed because you are alone at present.

hippiebob on 29-Dec-19 5:40:40

to metroplex: thanks for your comment, i believe i can understand what you mean. i had a friend, well still do, but anyway, she's 61 and though she had a couple of short relationships, she never "found the one" who she felt was right.
it can still happen for you, if it can for me, at 63, it can for you at your age too! you still have a lot of time. i just feel that i don't want to spend whatever amount of years i have remaining, alone. i'm not the sort who does well without some kind of female companionship, especially intimate, but also otherwise.
unfortunately there are times i get impatient, especially when i am in public and see "happy couples" or a chance just swishes by because there never seems to be time enough to talk. it's hard to talk to somebody in a serious manner in just a 30 minute wait for the bus...but, with the cosmic help of saint jude, i am hoping my impossible/improbable cause turns into a possible...probable one.
and anger---i've lived with various forms of that emotion my whole life, well wait, not the 11 years i was with my wife, i hardly ever was angry then. lol

but you are right.
thanks for your insight...

HB