Though I wrote on 26th that I am going to start bogging but it took time. So I feel I must write something. Couldn't found any topics and after a long thought I feel I could share my pains and sorrows which make me so depressed. I have been married since almost eight years, have one son. My immature thought and life style with irresponsibility is leads me to have such a depression. That't a long story and I don't want to make readers bored by writing this here. For these reasons my beloved wife lose confidence, faith and feelings on me. And also she lose interest to having sex with me! If I am so lucky then I have got chance to have sex with her once in a month. That makes me too much sad and depressed. By nature I have a very high level of sexual desire. That makes me crazy specially at night when I go to bed. I can't sleep most of the night and feel like cry! I feel pain like hell in this earth but can't do nothing. I can make sexual partnership with other woman or if I failed do this at least I can go to a brothel but can't. Because I love her more than my life. I feel the same attraction for her as like when we met at first time. Every sinner punished for a certain period then he or she will relief from the punishment. When my punishment period will be finished? I still show my love, passion and feelings to her but those attitudes it seems that she treat those as a joke! I want from all the readers of my blog that please pray to almighty that He will forgive me and stop giving this hell like punishment. I want to get back my happiness again. Also readers, please advise me what I can do to get rid from this worst situation.
I try to cry but can't and that creates an intolerable pain into my heart. That's why I decided to share it here.
I pray to almighty: "O God, please don't let anyone of this earth fall into this type of situation like me." | 
