iloveshay's blog post - then beginning of the end.

let me start and say that by no means am i the type of guy to "fall in love" or even believe in "love at first sight". i have been married once before and that was the worst experience i have ever had and glad that it is over with. i then made a vow to just have fun and have sex. i have been honest with all the girls i have fucked around with. every now and then i get the crazy "stage 5 stalker" girl that keys my car, calls the other girls in my phone. i just deal with it and go on, they are not worth it.now i am starting to doubt myself and it all started that friday night at cowboys.
i was standing at the entrance with my buddys doing what we normally do, decide who is doable and not doable as they walk in. then i saw the most "doable" woman i have ever wanted to fuck. she was hot! walking up the stairs and getting her hand stamped, she stood at least 5 10, or 5'11, long blond hair, and a body to kill. she walked up laughing, briliant smile and contagious laugh. as she walked by me her green eyes sparkled. i couldn't take my eyes off her. as the night went on i watched her play pool, dance, turn down other men, and have fun. never in my life have i been afraid to walk up to a girl and talk to her. i know that i am hot, so many have told me so, but i was no match for her. i waited till she was just about toasted drunk then asked her to dance with me.
it was all over from there.
shay you are amazing. i hate the fact that i want to spend so much time with you. you make me go against every rule in the players book. until i see you tomorrow- i love you