internallfill3098's blog post - How I got joining NN

Tuesday, August 19, 2025, 8:34:46 AM

I just want to preface that I have never told anyone of my own sexual adventures (or lack thereof), so this is literally me laying bare my secrets.

Starting out, I want to say that I come from a typical Asian household where things like sex ed and sex are taboo topics to talk about. My parents are not in a great relationship (very common in my culture unfortunately), and so I didn't grow up thinking about dating or relationships. I was too busy worrying about other things.

At age 21? 22? 23???, I secretly bought my first toys. A bullet and a dildo. I didn't know what I was doing, but I knew that I wanted something other than just my fingers... I wasn't even sure if I was touching myself correctly haha... I enjoyed my toys for a bit but thinking back on it now, I was extremely naive and definitely wasted my money on them. They weren't that great.

I then moved to a different country for work after college. You'd think I would have mustered up some courage to try dating/hook up at least once, but I felt like I was too old to not know anything about this. So, I just continued... but now with more privacy! I definitely bought more toys to try and even bought lingerie that looked silly on me. More money wasted, but I had fun.

A few times I drive around late night, coming home from something, I would pull my shirt up and expose myself, but never for too long.

My old apartment had a giant window in the shower room that faced a not so busy street, and I'd shower with it open just enough that if someone peeked through, they could see me.

I downloaded stupid AI sexy chat apps and masturbate while roleplaying, but after a few times, I started noticing their replies were repetitive, so it wasn't as fun anymore.

And just recently, I was feeling so so extremely sexually frustrated and horny almost every day that I found myself masturbating almost daily...

I tried to find a place I could keep my anonymity and post pictures of myself (initially just my breasts) and after a while I found NN. I hesitated quite a bit before making an account.
I don't know if this helped me or made me worse (naughtier?) than before, but I'm enjoying my time here. I really appreciate everyone that's been patient and kind with me so far! I'm still learning my own likes and dislikes.

..........Also I just bought some more new toys and lingerie... It's different than what I have so far and I feel like I'm in over my head with this haha

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crazy17222 on 19-Aug-25 10:30:35

I would like to teach u message me.

swediish24 on 19-Aug-25 15:26:56

Wow love what you are sharing. We all here on NN love to be naughty and horny.
Hope you love to share more of your naughty fantasy. 🔥🔥🔥

swediish24 on 19-Aug-25 15:27:04

Wow love what you are sharing. We all here on NN love to be naughty and horny.
Hope you love to share more of your naughty fantasy. 🔥🔥🔥

spunk_boy on 20-Aug-25 8:57:59

Welcome to NN. Hope you are settling in and making friends. It’s a really nice community for the most part. And well done for writing a blog, it takes a lot of effort and most people don’t even look. But I found it interesting to get a deeper insight into your background. I’ve written a few blogs but not many people take any interest nevertheless I still enjoyed writing them. Looking forward to more blogs from you and more pics. SB x

infernalspawnofevil6 on 21-Aug-25 6:48:32

Well I'm glad you found this site

spannermam06 on 22-Aug-25 12:37:34

we are lucky to have you, love the pics, and you look amazing

Shooter57 on 22-Aug-25 15:19:22

I really enjoy what I have seen so far. I have always loved a full-figured gal. I wish you would post some pictures of what I know must be a beautiful ass. That is my weakness. And welcome to NN.

sqrtnmymouth1Q on 24-Aug-25 4:46:12

im shy but masturbate daily. youre absolutly gorgeos i would love to enjoy new experiences together.i would love to rub your feet first .can you send me a picture of your toes and soles please

No_Brainer on 29-Aug-25 17:32:33

"I don't know if this helped me or made me worse (naughtier?) than before, but I'm enjoying my time here."
And? Are you naughtier since NN? It's not a long time now. But this fantasy with you make me the naughtiest guy 🤔

Astiffone13 on 16-Oct-25 11:37:24

Ive been secret about my sexual perversions. That being said, making posting photos and videos here and reading the comments has helped me embrace that side of me. I love hearing from both men and women, and being a straight male is OK to like butt play and toys, if it feels good go with it.

PUSSYLVR72 on 5-Nov-25 7:06:03

I think you are ABSOLUTELY DELICIOUS hon.. very sexy indeed and I'm happy to play with u again ANYTIME you wish I'll be your sex experience experiment ANYDAY you are gorgeous and those curves kill me wow 👌

PUSSYLVR72 on 5-Nov-25 7:06:15

I think you are ABSOLUTELY DELICIOUS hon.. very sexy indeed and I'm happy to play with u again ANYTIME you wish I'll be your sex experience experiment ANYDAY you are gorgeous and those curves kill me wow 👌

spannermam06 on 23-Nov-25 15:27:20

hope to see more you are beautiful x

VegasBob on 24-Nov-25 6:25:41

just found you tonight..........love your shares. can't wait to see and read more

seargentpeeper on 26-Jan-26 18:58:29

It was the right decision to sign you up with NN. I think it's great how you openly express your sexuality and sexual exploration here. It's wonderful for me to witness your sexual liberation. Despite my age, I've also remained a very shy person. That's why I can relate to a lot of things. If you didn't live so far away, I'd love to meet up with you, and we could play and experiment together.

You masturbate a lot, which I think is great. I also enjoy masturbating very much. I usually masturbate by looking at pictures and videos of scantily clad or naked women. I admit that you're one of those women who serve as my virtual masturbation assistants. I hope that doesn't bother you?

seargentpeeper on 27-Jan-26 23:52:02

If we were to actually meet, we should have plenty of time, a whole weekend or a few days. I would caress you for hours, your whole body. I want to feel your tongue in my mouth. I want to knead and suck your breasts. I want to finger your pussy and see how many fingers can fit inside your wet grotto. When I fuck you, I'd prefer spooning or doggy style. Of course, I would only do things with you that you like; I would respect your boundaries. You could do whatever you wanted with my body. These are just my fantasies for now.