a life time of worry. Any parent understands what it is to worry about their off spring. Some of us have a few worries that the rest of you don't.
Today one of the biggest worries I have been carrying for the life time of one of my children has been lifted.
He was approved for the government disability and on the first go round. I had been warned there were usually many, many appeals and was resigned to that but that is a battle that I do not have to fight. There have been so many in the past it is a huge relief. Not only do I not have to fight he will be financially independent.
This is not the last step but it is a giant leap.
I feel good!!
Ready to fight on.
ju

One of these years I will get to Ottawa to celebrate.
ju

Happy Father's day all you sexy dads out there!
ju xx

I do have them. At times they are very straight forward. I know what I want to say and just say it.
At other times they aren't so neat and tidy and look much like this


That is when I get annoyed. I know what I want to say and yet can not get from A to B no matter how hard I try.
Patience is not one of my strong suits.
In the mean time I will try to breathe deeply knowing it will all sort itself out.
ju

uninspired.
I was reminded today that I always post a pic on my birthday. I had forgotten all about that.
My Mom is coming down for my birthday. I see her so rarely I am super excited about it and the last thing on my mind was taking a pic in my birthday suit but once it was mentioned I felt some obligation to keep the tradition going.
I missed only one other year and that was my 50th but I was having too damn much fun to have even thought about it.
Tonight would be the night to take the pic (circumstances being what they are, time, freedom etc) and save it until Monday to post but the mojo isn't there. It feels contrived. Like I am fulfilling an obligation rather than making it a celebration. I just don't feel it. I can not label a pic "52" in my mind tonight.
Maybe, just maybe Mon I will sneak a pic and post it but then again it just may be another "lost" year for my gallery.
Wondering yet again how I got myself into this,
ju

it is the end of the first long weekend of summer but I have one more day off. It will be a busy one.
I did get a huge chunk of gardening done. For whatever reason I have a hard time throwing out plants and because of that my tiny garden had become a cement block of perennial roots.
I finally divided them. Ruthlessly throwing out plant matter that I had lovingly neglected for the past few years.
With any luck at all what is left with will flourish this year.
Right now tho I am sitting here, in the dark enjoying patterns the solar lights I have brought back out are creating, snorting the lilac fragrant air and thinking I will sleep well.
G'night
ju

And one giant headache.
I am pretty good at holding it together when under stress but as soon as the stress is over I get one whopper of a headache.
I know the physiology of it all but that doesn't really matter because I know that the headache is a good thing. It is an end to something that had me totally wound. I know the headache won't last and when it goes things will once again be as they should.
ju

Tappity, tappity, tap goes the keyboard.
We as NNers like to think we are a melting pot. A place where everyone is welcome. Generally we show that to new comers with a few exceptions. The exceptions are fake and illegal.
What we do have are annoyances really. Pics getting posted into the wrong category, cocks showing up in female only that kind of thing.
I cannot help but think if this site was to truly become the melting pot we like to think it is with the option of transgender for sex, with the categories for cross dressing etc and the appropriate filters... before you get screaming...YES! I know there are separate sites for "those people" but really is that needed? "They" come here because there is more traffic than there is on their specialized sites. "They" have the same need to be seen as the more vanilla of us.
I really think with a few minor adjustments, improved filters, a few new categories and a slightly better search function this place could be more fun than it already is.
For many of us this place is social, it labels itself as a community. There isn't a single one of us that is looking for the same thing as the next. Boundaries are meant to be pushed, lines crossed and face it every single one of us has looked at all manners of porn we wouldn't publicly identify with just out of curiosity.
I would like to see the options for different sites taken off the header and to have those options available right here. I would love for people to be able to find the best that we amateurs have to offer in one place. I want to be able to perv everyone doing what they do behind mostly closed doors.
I want the place that bills itself as "The worlds best amateur nude community" to really be one.
Idealistic,
ju

But my garage is clean.
The clutter of the last few days in sheltered sun before subzero temps has been cleared.
The shovels, salt etc has been tidied.
The snow has mostly gone from my part of the world in the sunniest areas but it still lingers in the shade.
We have had a few days above 0 but soon, very soon we will be able to sit just inside the door facing the sun, catching up after a long hibernation. We will slug back beer, listen to tunes and bask in the returning sun until it chases us away once more with its intense heat.
Garage parties rock.
I am looking forward to the first one of the season,
ju

and you all know just how much it really is my season. I have hit the wall.
I am not looking forward to summer so much as I am just a change of season.
This vid sums it up quite nicely I think.

[url]https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wkDvqQKGgDA[/url]

Bored of my winter wardrobe,
ju