So many have asked about it so I will try to offer an explanation. There is a lot here that is outside my realm of familiarity but hey, it seems positive so I am going to go with it.

Friday night I had a dream. I don't remember all the details but there was something that totally stuck out. There was a piece of paper with 444 printed on it. It wasn't small, infact it was very vibrant and the only thing I remembered of the dream. Unable to make any real sense of it I decided to buy a lottery ticket, a pick 3 using the numbers 444. I won nothing but was relating the story to cas and cas being cas had to do some investigating. She was copy and pasting some of the info she had found to me. I have been unable to find the exact site she was using but have found a ton of sites related to that bizzarre number sequence.

Q.
What does the number 444 mean?


A. A long period of paying attention to details and building for the future is about to pay off.
If the payoff is rejected or pooh-poohed (which could be an instinctive reaction, considering the law of inertia), the long period hard work may be continued past the point of the accomplishment of its purpose, which would be a dead end.
444 is a good number. Recognize the accomplishment of the purpose of your prior work and enjoy the new tangent your life has taken.


444 — Thousands of angels surround you at this moment, loving and supporting you. You have a very strong and clear connection with the angelic realm, and are an Earth angel yourself. You have nothing to fear—all is well.

After that hindsight came into play. During 2 bus trips in one day I found 2 twoonies ($4) and the course I had been taking for the last 3 weeks was series 44.

Considering my seeming inertia for a long time and the new hope of this course, my total unfamiliarity with anything to do with numerology and angels the sequence of numbers was incredibly odd.

It all sounds positive and that is where my mind was anyway so I am going to go with it.

Enjoying the positive energy,
ju

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Let me get a lil stranger, it was pointed out to me my son was born on 4/4. Having dealt with his disability this just brings a little more meaning to the message. Perhaps there is a reason after all...

Is the most difficult one to see. We all get wrapped up in our own reality and forget there is somthing bigger that needs consideration.
Take from that what you will,
444 is someting I had no idea about but bears much consideration.
ju

With the recent earthquake in Haiti I have been wondering.
I have been wondering if I have become cold and heartless.
I have found my capacity for compassion has become a limited resource.
I have huge amounts of compassion, time to listen, the strength to shoulder anothers burdens for a time but I fear that I just dont have the compassion for the general population, the ones that I don't know one on one.
I am dead, almost, to world disasters. Is this because I have been over exposed? Or is it a need to try to protect my own?
Last winter I did work with a woman from Haiti and I can't help but think of her and her family. What I have lost is the overwhelming need to rush in and save in some aspect.
I have been struggling, most members of my family are struggling with one issue or another. My friends all seem to have more than is fair on their plates. Is this what is making me dead to what is going on elsewhere in the world. Is there a limit to compassion? Have I reached it?
It is scary to me to to not care anymore on a global basis, perhaps that comes with age. I just seem to be so wrapped up with MY family and friends that there is nothing left for anyone else.
Feeling desensitised,
ju

NN is all about the physical or is it?
I had the audacity to say today that intelligence is a huge turn on for me. It really is articulate conversation, debates, different points of view that stimulate my mind which make me more open to other forms of stimulation. Of course as soon as I said this there were the jokes, some were funny and what made them funny was that they were said tongue in cheek, totally sarcastic, understanding exactly where I was coming from. What wasn't funny were all the umm supposedly intelligent replies that were meant for my eyes only which negated everything I said. There was absolutely NO understanding of where I was coming from. They thought a few trite quotes would be enough to stimulate me. Intelligence to me isn't book smarts, it isn't something that can be learned it is something that is inherant in a person who is resourceful, flexible, determined and open minded among other traits. Intelligence has nothing to do with spouting what you have learned via books and other media, it has everything to to with adapting what you have learned and the ability to not just regurgitate it but to apply your knowledge in any given situation.
What stimulates me and what stimulates you are probably very different after all we are all individuals but what stimulates me is just as valid as what stimulates others and deserves to be treated with the same respect.
Respect is NOT something that is deserved it is something earned.
With that I get off my soap box knowing some will get it and others wont have a clue about what I am talking about.
ju

Strengths and weaknesses I have been aware of them, for well, almost forever. What I have recently discovered is that most of them are in a parallel existance. I know what I can do in several areas of my life and I also know what I can't do so well. The negatives can be made into positives BUT what I haven't figured out how to do is make them work together.
I have plenty of long distance support (family, friends etc) but nothing close by. My trusted person died a few months ago.
I need to figure out how to manage all aspects, to learn how to trust with no long term knowledge.
One of my kids is ready to be independant, the other, I am not sure he will ever be. Their well being is non negotiable. Therein lies my struggle.
Wishing I had answers,
ju

I have been busy and frankly just too tired to think much, But thought I would at least say hi.
So,
HI!!
ju

[url]https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PrKCS3c8m3U[/url]
I'm thinking Raggy will get a kick out of it
Giggling,
ju

I really knew that when I was putting my son to bed and he
asked me if he was dreaming
Hope you all had a wonderful day too!
ju

9pm Christmas eve.
Kid 1 is on a cleaning binge.
Kid 2 has been puking and is tucked up on the couch.
My day was busier than I anticipated and I am tired.
I just want it to be tomorrow evening now. Presents opened, wrapping paper disposed of, dinner cooked, enjoyed and left overs put away, dishes done and me stretched out happy to have pulled it off yet again and looking forward to an early night.
Once again, Merry Christmas to all and to all a good night!
Thank fuck this only comes once a year,
ju

So many of you will be travelling in the next few days.
Because of the difference in time zones, my Christmas eve won't be yours.
Because so many of you mean so much to me for reasons as varied as each one of you are, now is the time to wish you all a very happy and safe holiday season.
Merry Christmas NN, NN-J and support.
Merry Christmas all of my fellow pervs.
Deck the halls with cocks and pussies fa la lala la la la la la!
ju