kittykats1's blog post - craptastic

I haven't had much to say lately so I have said nothing. I am not feeling 100% right now so I am pretty much forcing myself to update this bitch or it would just go fallow and I would ignore it entirely for a few days.

I caught some cold, probably at the gym while working out. Gym germs. Yuck. I am the only one who has it here, but I have been the only one working out the past week. Hubby has had no time to get to the gym. The kicker is that not only do I feel crappy but the crud has immediately gone straight to my sinuses, my weak point. My head hurts and my teeth ache. My left ear is killing me and pops every time I swallow. It fucking sucks. I just got over being sick no less, now this. The timing could not have been worse because I just haven't time to be ill right now. Too much is going on. My husband will be pretty much non-present until Tuesday as his big convention that he helps put on is this weekend. No time for me to rest as there isn't time for him to really help watch our son. He is trying the best he can but he is spread so thin right now. I don't want to go to the doctor as I know I will be put on antibiotics and I just hate that. They make me feel awful and give me a yeast infection. The guys have it so lucky when it comes to shit like that; not having to deal with some of the crummy side affects of antibiotics. I am allergic to sulfa so that isn't an option for me. I know I will end up back at Kaiser and on antibiotics but I am trying to put it off as long as I can. My guess is by Saturday I will have had enough and will be miserable enough to call for an appointment unless the pain in my face and ear make it impossible to deal with. Yes I am a terrible sick person lol. I just HATE hospitals and doctors and taking pills that always seem to make me feel worse. No I am not one of those martyr types, either. I will keep trudging along and doing what needs doing until I pretty much fall over, and most won't realise how sick I am because I don't let on. It frustrates my husband (he says) as I refuse to be taken care of and let him handle things. I think part of it is my control freak nature that makes it very difficult for me to relax and hand everything over and just forget about it all. I just couldn't kick back and feel unconcerned. I get agitated just thinking about it, uck. I guess by now you have realised that I am an utter pain in the ass to live with lol. I guess the benefits outweigh the annoyances as he has put up with me for 12+ years.

He took our son with him to go help with set-up so I could have an hour or two alone, so I am gonna go lay down for a few minutes but first I need to track down my heating pad. The warmth may help ease the ache in my sinuses and my ear. Sorry this isn't more upbeat or anything, I am just feeling really shitty right now

Puurrs to all,

Currently listening to: Lush "For Love'