kittykats1's blog post - party pooper

Why is it that when I feel the least like being social and the most like being a couch potato that I seem to rack up a large amount of social commitments? Why is that?

I am so not in the mood for any of it. We have a dinner tonight, I have a lunch on Friday, a baby shower on Saturday and then next week has 2 more dinners, a lunch and I have a show on the Sunday. I am in the mood for none of it. I just want to sit somewhere quiet with a book and read or just sit and contemplate my navel. I don't want to see anyone or talk to anyone, I just want to be left alone. Perhaps it is the feelings of a blue funk nibbling at my toes; the thought of my birthday in a few days has really bummed me out, but I don't know for sure. Perhaps it is the lack of good sleep that is making me this way. I have had night after night of bad or disturbing dreams and I have lost count how many times I have woken up and felt unsettled. I only wish I could remember what the dreams were about, it is frustrating and troubling.

Puurrs to all,

Currently listening to: Radiohead "Karma Police"