It's 4:39am. I should be in bed. Asleep. I can't sleep. I hurt too much to sleep. I tried and tried but couldn't. I am ready to cry from frustration, exhaustion and plain old pain. In just a couple hours I have to wake my son up for school and start my day. I am unsure how I will negotiate my day in a fog of tiredness. I happened to glance at my reflection in a mirror and I look like a zombie. I guess that is what happens when you have gone without any meaningful rest for 3 days.My skin is so pale and my eyes look glassy. The dark circles under my eyes are so prominent I look like I have been punched in the face. I just want to be able to lay down and sleep. I am so damn angry at everyone around me because they are sleeping and I can't. Hearing my husband snoring away is making my blood boil because I can't get to where he is. I hurt so bad I can't find a comfortable way to lay so I could sleep. This fucking sucks. |