lil sis's blog post - Returning from the past and moving to the future.

I have not written here in a long while and feel the need to journal again so off I go.

I am a 42 year old woman, in a committed long term relationship, that used to claim Dom/slave, and polyamorous, but now feel is more like I am his care taker. I am working thru my feelings about that, but am content for now.

Mostly it is the meds, he takes robbing him of drive, inspiration, desire, imagination, will, motivation, or anything resembling the man I fell in love with. Fall, deep and hard, I did tho, with the mind fucking creativity, loving after care, and stimulation on so many levels. When I gave my heart and soul to him that vow is just as powerful to me today as the day I was first collard. I belong to him, but he is no longer my daddy. Which although more torturous to me than any bdsm scene, ever could be, I accept.

He is good to me, loving and respectful, caring of my feelings, asking little of me, but everything. Waiting on him hand and foot, is an honor I will bare, and cherish giving him any comfort I can, and all the love he can take. His illness is mental, like my own, although I have diabetes too. He is deserving of all my honor and respect and adoration.

I have gotten other tattoos since that last post, and will be posting pics. So this is my first post in years.