lovely_luscious_bbw0's blog post - Been a While...

It's been a really,really long time since I've posted a blog on here.I haven't been on the site much,and when I do log in,it gets my train of thought to racing and so I decided maybe putting all those thoughts into a blog would be a good idea.We'll see how that pans out...
Those of you who know me personally know I've been going through a rough time over the last year.I guess one of my defenses is to just shut out people and pretend things are fine.Maybe it's a weakness,I dunno...
Anyway,aside from emotional issues,there have been a few physical things that have kept me from being interested in taking pics and so on...I've been having problems with my weight.It's gone down,gone up,then up and up some more,lol! After I lost about 50 lbs. the first time, I was actually kinda disappointed.Everything shifted,I got smaller in places I was ok being bigger in and the things I wanted to get smaller never did. Not ideal.LOL! I've also had a pretty bad rash (eww,I know!) but I've now attributed that to the copious amounts of Mountain Dew I've been drinking the last few years.Hopefully that will soon finish clearing up too.
So for those of you that thought I was gone,those that gave up on me,or if you've just missed me,rest assured I'm still here,and I still love y'all!