mananimal's blog post - venting

I have received two low blows in two day's .
One I make to much on unemployment.
The other I can't aford to live .It's not that I don't whant to work it's that I can't ,( I loved my job .Hard work and it was good pay . )Can't sit for long with out pain or be coming stiff . Can't stand or walk vary long eather my joints hurt or I can't breath right .Even thought about quiting the fier department .Even practice night kills me .
I never asked for this I don't want it. My mother and I got in an argument over the phone about what I was told ,it's like she doesn't under stand what im going through.
Im losing me and who I was and becoming some one els . and I can't cope in some ways .
When to the doc. yeasterday and all he did was bitch at me about my blood pressure being high (well its been high for a long time)And how I haven't been to my lung doc for a year (he's a quack any way)And I haven't been taking all my meds .
Then I go to see about medical help through the goverment.
No can't help and what you had we just took away , how nice .
OOOOOOOOoooo well what's next ooo my back hurts call the ambulance ha ha ............ Thanks for letting me bitch