manlycornhusk's blog post - ok...back for a second helping...

sitting in the back, feeling the heat of the day slowly slipping away. the mock orange scenting the evening air with it's spices...i can't help myself. my shorts become an indistict mound on the wooden decking.

I'm a big guy, have been all my life. does it bother me...sometimes...mostly because it bothers other people. some just can't get past the fact that i'm different. i used to think, to hell with them..what do they know, but then i realized...they know what they were told. if you're not in shape, delightful to the eye...you should be covered as to not offend others senses. sad, really. if you've never been different...overweight, short, tall, pale, handicapped, etc. you wouldn't understand. you may say you do, but you don't.

i hate clothes but i wear them because they are the shrub that the world hides me behind. just think..a fat guy and he's naked...omg. if there's anything to evolution....i would point it in the way of sight. yes, i would give up seeing flowers bloom in the spring, twinkling stars, water lapping on the shore, paintings in the museum, movies at the theater just to have a chance to be accepted for who i really am.

so now, i sit out back in the cover of night, wishing things were different but knowing tomorrow, they'll be the same..sigh....

Peace, Love and Blindness to Standards...