I can see you hovering above me. I can hear your breath, I can smell your perfume. My heart begins to race, my palms start to sweat. I feel that I've waited for this moment my entire life, only to be disappointed at the height of ecstasy. For when I reach for you, you're never there. That's what happens when you've fallen for a fantasy.

Like a dream you came to me on that cold dark night. I didn't know if I should make my move, who knows I just might. I showed you most of the tricks in my book. I must've done something right because the look on your face said I was doing something right. Come the morning light, you were gone. You told me when you arrived in my home so I already knew I did nothing wrong. I await the day that you'll Come back to me, but then I thought "vas I just a test drive and it didn't mean anything"? But that's what happens when you are used for a "fling"

Minutes to hours, hours to days, days into years. I slowly watch life passing me by. Has all that I've seen, all that I've done made my life complete? Done more than most, yet done less than some.

Thoughts of you are forever embedded in my mind. I close my eyes and see your warm silleoette embracing my soul. I can see this apparition and I pray that it won't let go. Your ghost haunts my life, it haunts my mind. If this is only a dream, I hope that I never wake up.

I'm not the man who I use to be. Whatever you see, it's just not me. I am the Tin Man with a missing piece. The tin man is who I never wanted to be. A piece I gave away long ago. I can never get back, "Why?" I don't know. Before you say you know who I am, remember what you see, is just not me.

In the darkness of night, my only company is the unseen owl that speaks in a language that I don't understand. Ancestors say that they are a symbol of evil, and some say that they watch over me since they can see in the night. I don't know what the owl tells me in the darkness of night, but at least I know that I'm not alone

There have been many times I've made mistakes. Some big, most small, but a mistake is a mistake. Mistakes I've learned to hate.

I see you from across the room. I want to get closer and to know your name. Fear has overcome my courage, now I'm frozen where I stand. What would I say? What should I do? I'm so nervous, what should I do? To scared to ask for help, too scared to be myself. What should I do? Approaching you makes me so nervous.

I fell in love on a rainy day..
Oh the rain was very cold..
You said "I love you" on that cold wet day, but could not look me in the eyes..
now just a shell of who I use to be....

Are you Satisfied?
Are you Satisfied?

Time goes on and takes too long..
Is there no end in site..
The precious hours they seem like days..
Will mine end here tonight?
I want to know if I wasted time?

Are you Satisfied?
Are you Satisfied?

Time forgives and time forgot..
But won't forgive you for what you've done..
You took my heart, you crushed my soul!!

Are you Satisfied!?
Are you Satisfied!?

Satisfied..for what you've done
Satisfied with love, now I have none..
Satisfied..with everything about you
Satisfied that I know the truth..
Satisfied..with what you think is right..
Satisfied that I'm alive another night..

Are you Satisfied?
Are you Satisfied?

This is a song I wrote about around 18 years ago. I hope that you enjoy it

I think I've lost what's left of me.
What was left has fallen out of this shell of a body what people see as me.
Torn apart at the seams
Torn so precise that no one else can see.
My mind pulls me one way,
But my heart pulls me another.
I get so confused if I should follow common sense and go with what I think is right, or follow my heart and go with what I've grown to love more than life itself.
You said love died a very long time ago.
You're love has died, but mine never did