mikesurfer99's blog post - Will Power

Where do people find the will do things. I feel my will is gone and I can not get motivated to do anything. This funk has lasted a few months now and has been growing stronger. By nature Im a very shy person and NN has helped me out, however I always felt selfish for not posting more. I had made a personal bet with myself and decided I would post a bunch of pics of the new me after I started getting into shape. Once I started working out things felt great and I was on top of the world and even posted my first pic after a long break. That was 6 months ago and here I am looking back wondering where that will has gone to. Do I not love myself as I once did or am I unable to and why am I here.

As time passed this funk weighs on me more, I want to go back to living the way I did, the only obstacle is me. People say you just find will inside, I have looked and I see it there but have no idea how to set it off. Just do it doesn't work so well for me, I need reasons and a cause, the scarey part is Ive forgotten the reasons I had before....where do I go from here?