I like sex. I am very choosy about who I have sex with and so most of the time, I am having sex with my favorite person...myself. I like knowing that others are turned on by me. I like knowing that people are looking at my pictures. I like interacting with others as I masturbate. This might be a little graphic, but once I insert the vibrator, I rollover onto my stomach and ride it. I let gravity and my body weight to push it further into my body. In this manner, I have my hands free. I can then type and engage with others on this site (a porn site, no less) until I that moment, when I am about to cum. Sometimes, I am not typing but looking at others pictures (it gets me wet) and describing what I am doing to myself for others. I typically cum pretty fast. If I am worked up it can be as fast as 5 minutes. Tonight it was 14 minutes. I get done and notice that there is a status about how it is amazing to them that someone can type while being on the verge of cumming. It lead to a string of comments, one of them being about how many be those who do that are not telling the whole truth. I debated about if I wanted to comment on the thread or not. I really felt as if the comments were about me but I might be too sensitive and making it about me. I really didn't want to engage if others were judging me and my actions. It's a porn site for goodness sake!!!!! Tis is the one place where I can freely express my sexual nature without feeling judged. Tonight, I felt judged. Tonight, I felt like I wanted to leave this community because of snarky comments. It really destroyed the great feeling of cumming!!! I can absolutely say that when I am having sex with a flesh and blood man, engaging in this community forum is the last thing on my mind. However, when having self sex, sometimes I need something more than my imagination to get me going. In the almost 5 years I have been on this site, I have interacted with some wonderful people. My boundaries have been stretched and my tastes expanded. Prior to being on this site, I never would have engaged in anal sex. I also never would have thought that pussy is hot! Tonight, I felt like I did something wrong. That makes me sad. This is a community of anything goes and support and freedom. It seemed very "judgy" tonight. |