mysecretlife's blog post - The call ......

Wasn't that bad. This girl is just so different than any of the other girls I've dated for any length of time. She is just so much more independent. I sort of like that idea because it seems many of the girls in the past have so dependent of me it was almost like having another child. All I know is I've seemed to be doing the same things and getting the same resuts. That's partly why I have been so reluctant to up and chuck this relationship.

Sometimes I do feel I keep making excuses for her behavior. I do think tho that she is a very strong willed person and if she wasn't interested she would have no problems telling me. I know when I came out of my 14 year marriage I had to relearn how to give and show affection and interest. She invited me to lunch Friday. Also to some trauma conference for 3 days the end of this month.

On a happier note. I had lunch with my daughter J yesterday. Her little belly is really starting to show. She works in the ER I worked in for 9 years. She works with some of the same nurses I worked with and when I see them they always brag on what a good girl and worker she is. I am very proud of her. Her mom took off 12 years ago and she has been with me since. Her mom calls from time to time but J has not told her she is even married much less pregnant. It has gotten to the point J does not want her to come back and she thinks if she told her that she will try.

I try to think I love all three of my kids equally but J is my eldest and we have always had such a close relationship. Ppl have told me my kids are lucky to have me but without a doubt it's the other way around. No telling where I would be or what I would be doing if they had not come into my life.

Supposed to get into the 60's today. Nice weather the next few days. I may get my bike out today.

You all have a good day.