mysecretlife's blog post - Not much to say lately

Been trying to keep busy to keep my mind off things. The girl I wrote about earlier. I was pretty much giving up on things then she started calling me more. We have talked every day for the past 8-10 days. Seen each other a couple times. She still has a lot going on. When we were together things were just great. We talked well she was smiling and seemed like she wanted to be with me. But I just have this feeling of impending doom that the rug is going to get pulled out from under me at any time. I know if I am not careful I'll make this a self fulfilling prophecy. I have a real tendency to try to do too much too fast in a relationship.

Bad thing is that I just feel that if this one doesn't work out then why even bother to keep trying and just keep ending up with the same results. I have to figure out what it is I keep doing that things always turn out the same. I know it is probably just me trying to hard. I am going to take Benjie's advice and just do nothing for a while.

Anyway I hate to sound whiney again. It's easier to date ppl you don't care about.

Got to work tomorrow and go in early to boot. Don't know why. Our day pilot took himself out of service today and tomorrow. Inner ear infection and vertigo. I'm glad. I don't want to be in the air with a dizzy pilot.

You all have a good Thanksgiving.