So every once in a while, I use a certain internet service (rhymes with Peg's Fist...) to find someone to hook up with. This has worked out pretty well for me up til now, I have had a pretty good success rate and even met a girl with a split tongue (I have never had better head in my life, than when the two forks of her tongue were wrapped most of the way around my cock!)
Now though, I find myself in a unique situation. A young woman posted an ad asking for someone to teach her about bondage and, having some experience and training in that area, I volunteered. Now we have been talking for a while and I find that I WANT her, but I am not so certain that she wants to use me for anything but information.
When I first started talking to her, I was excited enough to find out she was 20 and interested in bondage: I had thought it was a common fetish until I discovered that most people are joking about wanting to be tied up.
Then she started talking about wanting to be spanked and dominated, ordered around and made to submit, and my cock's been hard ever since.
Then I made a mistake. I have always believed any kind of relationship, especially a domination relationship, has to be based in absolute trust, so in order to keep from seeming like I was hiding anything, I told her I was divorced and had a son. Now she seems convinced that there will be baby-mama drama, and though she hasn't said so explicitly, I suspect she doesn't want to meet because of it.
This girl and I sound like a perfect fit sexually. We both want to have normal, non-kinky sex at first to get to know eachother, and every fetish that I have she seems to be into. She wants to be tied up and spanked, wants pictures taken. Wants to wear a corset and be ordered around, likes the taste of cum. And there's an extra thing about her too, something so personal I won't share it here, but something I have always wanted to try...
My dick gets so hard it hurts just thinking about it. Doesn't seem fair, that I would meet such a fantasy girl but she is bothered by my having a kid. I have been divorced for over a year, there's no feeling at all left between me and my ex, and she probably wouldn't even meet my son. But how to say all that without sounding desperate? |