ohioboy73's blog post - Glass is half-empty tonight

The glass is usually half-full. It’s usually partly-sunny.

But for a couple of days each year, it becomes too much for me. The positives just disappear and I struggle to just get through the days. Tonight, one of these moods started descending upon me.

I don’t know where it came from – okay I have my ideas – but it really came out of the blue.

The ideas …

I’m now 30 years old. I struggle with this one. It is the first “negative” birthday and there is so much that I had thought I’d have accomplished by this point, but it isn’t like my life is all that bad. I’ve got a good job, a pretty-good marriage, and a house I love. Of course there are little things, but for the most part 30 is just another number.

But, I do think it is a combination. I was supposed to take off Thursday and Friday this week in “celebration” of my birthday. Well, my work schedule really didn’t allow that. I enjoy my job, but one of the “interesting” things they do is give us all these vacation days, but then give us work-loads that make it nearly impossible to take all my vacation time and still achieve the goals and objectives that are associated with my position. Hence, I’m working on Thursday and “hoping” to get Friday off.

But it wasn’t like the “days off” were really going to be vacation. I’m just now getting my side-gigs off the ground, which means its at that point where I’m spending a lot of time and not getting much of a return on the investment yet. I’ve got 25 things on my to do list at work then I come home to another 15 things that I need to get done before bed.

The candle is getting burned out on this one, with a thousand dim candles running at me.

And then you factor in that the Holiday season is always tough for me. It is just such a wonderful night.

Well, enough of my bitching for one night.