pretty_ana's_mom's blog post - OMG!! THOUGHT I HAD DIED?!!

Well...ok...true I have been very sick. And unfortunately I still am. It wouldn't be so bad if I had help, but I just don't. But I am getting ready to reach out to perfect strangers, and just see what happens. According to Dr. Wayne Dyer, there are 6 billion people out there and someone will want to be of help. So it's my job to start writing some letters.

Secondly I have decided to take the alternative medicine route, but I will have to plan a fund-raiser because of course insurance doesn't cover and it is quite expensive. But I decided I could be indefinitely sick with Medicare doctors only treating my symptoms (allowing myself to hold onto a little money), or I could just roll the dice and be confident that I can recover my health....of course giving up the bit of security from that small amount of money...but hopefully being able to earn money once more.

First and foremost I am back though because I miss so many people here. Cool, md, depot, ralph, mel, only, english, alpina....and many more. I really really enjoy reading about other people's lives; I find it so interesting. And in addition I am always looking for the opportunity to meet new people because I have a big heart, and I know how to be a good and loyal friend. And even though so far my health has done a fabulous job shutting that down, I will not stop trying. My illness has really done a super job isolating me over the last year, but thanks to my ever ongoing research I found out I was on a drug which was making me very weak. And now that I have discontinued it, I at least have a little more strength now. Not nearly what I need, but this is definitely an indicator that things are a little better now.

Secondly I'm ready to write for myself again. Adversity has really taught me a lot, and I want to share. Will anyone care? I have no idea, but I am hopeful that someone may gain a little insight. And I always welcome insight and suggestions from others. True is I still have a long way to go, but honestly I do not want it to be by myself.

So I will write when I'm able, read when I'm able, and enjoy when able!