sammiealice's blog post - Sammie Alice--the cyber slut

Some times I feel like such a cyber slut. I admit that sometimes in the chat rooms I am really easy. If I am horny, it does not take much. But I try to be more selective than “does he breath”. Well, last night I was looking for some friends and got chatted up by a guy, I recognized his name and knew that we had chatted before. He says that he is really horny, ( like what guy isn’t—constantly), so we get cyber intimate but I have this nagging bad thought. So we finish, I say good night and then realized this was the guy who left me in the chat room at a very intimate moment a month ago and exposed me to the entire room describing exactly what I was doing to him. I had been so hurt that I had PMed him and told him he was a bastard. Then he said he was sorry, I said ok, and he asked me to have phone sex. I was ssoooooooo hurt that I thought about leaving NN. Well, after realizing that I had been cyber intimate with the same guy, I was sooooooo pissed with myself. How could I just be so non selective about whom I cyber with. Why expose myself again to him. I should have been more careful. I thought about pming him today and telling him---“ha—got me but it will never happen again” but the more I thought about it I realized he had been a gentlemen, when I said no, he stopped. We did not go further than I wanted. Maybe we had had a really bad first experience and miss understanding. So, I should be pissed, at me, and I need to be more careful but I also need to remember that sometimes people have misunderstandings and maybe a bastard could become a friend in time.

Hug to my friends,

Sammie Alice