College football is most exciting at this time of the year. Last night was all about LSU getting knocked off. Today has been Virginia Tech. Tonight is KU's turn.

I think that tomorrow all day and all night that I will listen to Iron Maiden. It will be in honor of Halloween. Several years ago I was not one to even listen to any metal. Then one night I heard an Iron Maiden tape and a new music world opened up for me. Not I'm almst entirely dark in my musical taste. So what music will you be listening to tomorrow.?

I believe that most everything we do is an attempt to escape the reality of the human condition. I won't paint a word picture of taht condition as I see it. My post this morning touched on it. I want to write instead about two of my favorite escapes.
The first ofcourse is music. I LOVE music and loose myself in listening to it. I listen alot to very dark metal and alot of softer dark rock. I adore "Dead Can Dance." Peter Murphy and The Cure are favorites as well. The music I listen to causes an escape not only from the music itself,but the words take me down dark roads which either take me away from my own hell...or allows me to contemplate it. I could live my entire life doing nothing else but listening to music.
My second escape is what brings me to this web site everyday...Pussy. I love pussy. I love the variety in shapes,tones,forms. I could look at pussy non-stop forever. Ofcourse I have to work which brings it's own escape.
Anybody ever listened to Peter Murphy?

"Mndays" most often bring me a renewed awarness of the chaos and despire that IS life. Another week of seeing the conflict between individuals...some who love some who hate. A new week brings again a sense of the hopelessness of friends who are depressed. For them still another week of walking in the dark trying to find some light...longing for light. There is uncertainty of loved ones leaving and living in a far off war in a place breeding with the hate that is "Male Ego" and sin that comes from monothesistic male dominated social order. Yet life goes on to its eventual end in death. How pointedis Monday in that consideration. "Monday" is a new beginning toward an old end. As human beings we are all a part of one nightmare creating our temporary escapes through our re-creation...yet football...yet car races...yet social involvemenys...yet LOVE. There is this great escape called lust...desire. Lust on yet another Monday.

There is no crying in freanch fries. What the hell? This has been a week where everybody I know seems to have dumped their lover or partner. Then there are all the phone calls...the "he said she said" conversations til one in the morning.
Everybody wants to be happy. And the real truth is that not only is happiness very over rated...BUT no other person can make you happy. My advice is this..."if you can't eat your french fries without crying then it's time to move on."

I spent alot of time over the weekend looking at the picture posts. I was a little surprised the so few people rate the photos. Sometimes there would be lots and lots of views of the photo but not many votes.
My weekend went well.Spent some time with family and friends. Drank too much Friday night and felt bad all day on Sat.

things change.i am home at the middle of the day to spend time with nmh. this couple hours go by so fast.

last night we had a birthday party for our friend roy. i had to clean the apartment twice...once before everybody got here and once when everybody left. i also had to run pick up the cake at the last minute because kay was at a baseball game. it was all worth it to see people sitting around enjoying themselves. now today i am going to a birthday party for my sister. and the only thing i'm gonna do is show up.

Thursday was a very ugly day. I was sad for those in London who suffered and experienced such great loss. My heart-felt thoughts and good will are with them.

the lady on the weather channel said this morning that research done at harvard found jan.24 to be the worst day for depressed people. over a 25 year period that day has more suicides,intakes for mental illness,panic and emergency counciling at hospitals. no explaination was offered as to why. to me it was a pretty normal day...howbeit a cold one..but normal.