Where do I begin? Well, my grandfather molested my mother. As a reaction to that treatment, when she married my father, she abandoned her family (me, a brother, 2 sisters, and my father) a number of times. Every time, my father dropped us off at my grandparent's house in Kentucky (we lived in Florida) and apparently went looking for her. I say apparently beause he NEVER spoke a single word about it to any of us. For that matter, he never spoke to us about ANYTHING. I hardly know my father, who passed away several years ago, but not before he passed Parkinson's disease to me.
My wife and I have been married for 48 years. Once, around our 25th anniversary, she was treating me so badly that I almost fell out of love with her, but I did allow myself to fall in love with another woman. My wife is essentially a prude. She isn't very sexual at all and has always been closed-minded to sexual experimentation. Meanwhile, I developed heavy-duty sexual interest in anything to due with the exploitation of women. Counselors tell me it's because I have been trying to get back at my mother. I love female torture of any kind, especially tit torture and tit hanging. Unfortunately, my wife is totally closed-minded to anything BDSM.
Meanwhile, the "other woman" I previously mentioned, was 100% open-minded and would do anything I wanted. We had some fantastic times when we were able to meet alone. Nothing was ever too kinky for her. She is a very hot and sexy BBW, who I have unfortunately not been with for many years now. SHe lives in Texas and has recently been diagnosed with cancer. She has "cooled off" a lot, and understandably so. For many years we pursued our sexual relationship via phone, internet, etc. Those were wonderful years, but they are over now.
Lately, I have gotten sexual fulfillment by posting my wife's naked photos on Newbie Nudes, and I have gotten some wonderfully explicit comments. I can occasionally get her to pose naked for me because she knows how much I like that. I have also turned to various forms of self-torture, which my Texas woman delighted in me sharing with her in terms of photos and videos. Unfortunately, she has life-threatening concerns, and we have been communicating very little.
That's a brief synopsis of my sex life. I've always been an extremely sexual person, but now I have very few outlets. I often feel sexually frustrated. If I can ever gather the money and figure out how to pay for a Premium membership, I will definitely do that. There are some SUPER HOT women on Newbie Nudes that I would love to communicate with. Until then, I'll do my best with a free membership.
I feel right at home with NN, and am very pleased to be here. |