So I have recently come to a decision. I am going to cut back on my drinking. I have no plans to stop drinking all together because I am not an alcoholic nor have I ever been one. I am just a social drinker. But, there is a difference between Tyler who drinks a few beers and Tyler who drinks liquor and gets totally shit faced.
I can handle drinking beers no problem but, as soon as I start drinking liquor I get drunk really fast and say/do stupid shit. I am not myself and not in control of myself.
Until last night I have always just brushed this off and when I wake up the next day hungover as fuck,embarrassed about my behaviour and usually with no money and sometimes no memory I just chalk it up to a night out with the boys.
Well lucky for me I have never done anything REALLY bad nor am I an angry drunk. But last night I was running my mouth and I said something that made a friend of mine really angry. Her and I arent speaking now and its totally my fault.
So, from this day forward I will be sticking to beer only and not letting myself get out of control. Last night I was a mess,I wasnt myself and I wasnt in control of my mind,my mouth or my body.
It just isnt fun anymore to wake up feeling like shit and realising that sure I had a fun night but I spent a fuck load of money and I can't remember all of the night. Now that I have ruined a friendship by running my mouth it hurts. In the grand scheme of things I didnt say anything all that bad and I am hoping she forgives me but it is up to her. ( I actually complimented her awesomeness in the sheets with me) but at the totally wrong time and place. Stupid drunken me
anyway I just wanted to write here and let yall know that I am almost 30 and realising that now maybe its time to grow up. I consider myself level headed,mature and a pretty good guy. But, when I get on the liquor I am none of those things.
So goodbye liquor. Hello self restraint.