Acey83's blog post - Somebody cheer me up.

Please.

After class yesterday, I headed around to my mate's place to prepare for a swingers' party. I was in good spirits, and I couldn't wait, since I hoped to relieve myself of a lot of pent-up stress. My mate was trying on these stupid outfits and G-strings, asking me which would pull the most girls. In the end, he donned a bowtie and an apron (and nothing else) to serve as the "bartender-bitch" for the night. He cracks me up.

Then, at about quarter to 6, I got a call from Dad. He tells me that my uncle Tim passed away while on a business trip to America. My extended family on my father's side is based in Canada, and I hadn't heard from uncle Tim since Christmas, but nevertheless, the news hit me like a truck. My stress levels shot through the roof, and I don't think I really got the better of it for the rest of the night.

I decided (foolishly) that it would be best for me to go to the swingers' party anyway, since it might still be excellent stress relief, and I would at least be able to take my mind off things while enoying the sexual company of others. *Bad* plan. I don't think I anticipated exactly how hard the news had hit me, and though the eyecandy of several girls each ravaging three guys at once did indeed take my mind off things, my own performance at the party was lacklustre at best, completely useless at worst.

Now that I'm home, I've talked to everyone here to decide what we should do next. Dad says he's on a plane tomorrow evening to attend the funeral. Apparently no-one knows how uncle Tim died yet, so I can only hope that it was quick and relatively painless for him. What really makes it worse for me is the fact that uncle Tim was my dad's *younger* brother. How bloody wrong is that? I swear to god that I will never understand how the world works, and that by the time I actually do start to get it, the world will have screwed me over too many times, and I'll end up a bitter, miserable wreck. Hell, I'm off to a great start with that already.

I think I'm gonna fucking cry.