Bernie201056's blog post - still struggling

Sunday, February 20, 2011, 9:03:16 AM

I am still struggling to get things right side up..

Just do not know which way to turn anymore, I cannot figure out any options that will help..

I am still stuck driving this stupid company truck and not making any money.. I feel it is all just one big waste of time and effort..

Some times I just feel like running away and starting anew some where else, however I know trouble and misfortune will follow me no matter where I run.

My life just sucks I guess it always had I just did not ever let it bother me because I always could figure out an option or something to get around the hurdle, but not at present I am getting too old to fight it any more, and I guess too old to really care..

I just have to let fate take its course and what ever happens, happens.. That hangmans noose is looking more inviting all the time.. I hate to think this way I hate how it seems it is my only option.. But this dark cloud just keeps hanging over my head and it just keeps getting darker and I just get more and more depressed..

I keep thinking just give it more time another month and things will somehow turn around.. I am getting tired of waiting, hopeing and trying..

So I am signing off.. Good bye world!! Bernie

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Wodja on 20-Feb-11 12:58:25

I feel compelled to say something when I read stuff like this...

Its not the first time you have talked this way.

so get yourself to a fukin doctor immediatly... NOW!!

NOW!!!!

dirtykinkuk on 20-Feb-11 13:11:46

Seek help - financial and medical. If you think you can't afford it, get to a charity or help group.

bOObzman on 20-Feb-11 13:34:31

Bernie, it maybe a tough step but yes, talk to someone right away!Life can be rough but it can be wonderful again too. Think of the good things. Good luck!

hapyjacq on 22-Feb-11 8:21:45

bernie... please get off of your poor me... u keep seeing life this way and that is what you're gonna get if i can perservere through all the shit that i've been through then you damn well should be able to..fuck look for good times and quit dwelling.. you sir are sometimes your most worst enemy... have a happy tuesday!