Mr_Vein's Blog

12 or 13 I think... 😂

Not just one of the best matches I've seen on AEW - one of the best matches I've ever seen!

I'd be tempted to try a nudist site or beach, just for the experience. But true naturists say it's about de-sexualising the human body. That's not what I want! I don't want a woman to look at me naked and not even notice my dick. I don't want to see a naked woman and not look at her boobs. It's more exhibitionism I want rather than naturism. But I'm not sure many public places cater for the simple pervert! 😂

So tomorrow (well, later today) I'm travelling to a wedding. The journey involves a bus ride from home to a railway station. Then a train to another station. Then another train to another station. Then another train to another station. Then one last train to the last station.

It's the kind of journey that would give anybody agita (lil nod to the Sopranos...) but I'm already feeling anxiety about the anxiety it will cause!

Apparently feeling anxiety about anxiety is fairly common. But bloody hell! I've realised tonight it's a major part of my anxiety on the late shift at work. I'm feeling anxious about the anxiety before I've even left the house!

It's a wedding. It should be a fun occasion! I mean, apart from the fact it's already cost me over 300 quid... 😬 But I just can't shake it!

I vaguely remember a time when I was almost fearless. I'd jump into any social occasion or situation without a moment's thought. But just like I get wobbly on a set of steps at work now, somehow age brings with it certain insecurities.

To quote the Australian comedian Jim Jefferies, "I'm on antidepressants, but I drink, so I'm not on antidepressants..." But I am taking my meds with me.

There's no real reason for saying all this other than, the advice on one website was "share your concerns with an unbiased party". So, guess what - you're all my unbiased party! 😂

Anyway, it's unlikely I'll take any pics while I'm there but you never know...

It's an individual time trial in the Giro d'Itiala today so I thought I'd share some wisdom from an ex professional cyclist.

A few years Chris Boardman did a feature on the mentality of the individual time trial.
You set off and you set a pace. You ask yourself "can I keep this up until the finish?"
If the answer is yes - you're going too slow.
If the answer is no - you're going too fast.
The answer you want is "maybe..."

Don't anyone read too much into this - this is to be taken entirely at face value...

I'm kinda getting bored of being in pain all the time! Between my back, my knees, my right hip and my left shoulder, there's always something that hurts.

I've had problems with my shoulder for about 3 years, but this week the pain feels different. And it's absolutely constant. There's no way I can stand at work, sit on the couch or even lie in bed that relieves it.

I'm a man so, obviously, unless something is actually hanging off I'm not going to a doctor. But on this occasion I think I might have to bite the bullet! 😬