Shyguy1976's Blog

Now I am not the biggest Taylor Swift fan but the lyrics are VERY true of me... according to everyone here I am the problem so it must be true

I have this thing where I get older, but just never wiser
Midnights become my afternoons
When my depression works the graveyard shift, all of the people
I've ghosted stand there in the room

I should not be left to my own devices
They come with prices and vices
I end up in crisis
(Tale as old as time)
I wake up screaming from dreaming
One day, I'll watch as you're leaving
'Cause you got tired of my scheming
(For the last time)

It's me, hi, I'm the problem, it's me
At teatime, everybody agrees
I'll stare directly at the sun, but never in the mirror
It must be exhausting always rooting for the anti-hero

Sometimes, I feel like everybody is a sexy baby
And I'm a monster on the hill
Too big to hang out, slowly lurching toward your favorite city
Pierced through the heart, but never killed

Did you hear my covert narcissism
I disguise as altruism
Like some kind of congressman?
(A tale as old as time)
I wake up screaming from dreaming
One day, I'll watch as you're leaving
And life will lose all its meaning
(For the last time)

It's me, hi, I'm the problem, it's me (I'm the problem, it's me)
At teatime, everybody agrees
I'll stare directly at the sun, but never in the mirror
It must be exhausting always rooting for the anti-hero

I have this dream my daughter-in-law kills me for the money
She thinks I left them in the will
The family gathers 'round and reads it and then someone screams out
"She's laughing up at us from Hell"

It's me, hi
I'm the problem, it's me
It's me, hi
I'm the problem, it's me
It's me, hi
Everybody agrees, everybody agrees

It's me, hi (Hi), I'm the problem, it's me (I'm the problem, it's me)
At teatime (Teatime), everybody agrees (Everybody agrees)
I'll stare directly at the sun, but never in the mirror
It must be exhausting always rooting for the anti-hero

I can't even post a pic/image on my blog anymore without IDing... that sucks... oh well

Someone PLEASE tell me what I'm doing here? I look at some of these guys pics and I feel like the biggest piece of shit EVER!!! Its depressing!!!

SO I get this DM outta the blue....

This person: I would love to see some pics.
My reply: No you wouldn't, there are better looking guys on here to see than me. You don't want to see me.. trust me
This person again: just curious, Why are you here then?

and then they blocked me.

So I ask... was that response reason for a block? maybe it was or wasn't I am not sure. All I know is people are quick to the block button these days. Now for the second question.. Why am I here then if no pics? Well maybe the answer is that I have made some friends on here over the years that this is the only way of contact.

What people don't realize is me not having pics is best for them. If they saw me they would need eye bleach for there eyes after seeing me so I am saving them the head ache. I firmly believe I am doing good for people here by not posting pics here anymore.

So the REAL question: If I don't plan on posting pics any more here should I just leave? Its a serious thought

So people reading this.... Should I leave here if no plans to post pics anymore? If I get enough votes to leave I will. I don't want to be in a place where I am not wanted.

Where is the love?


What's wrong with the world, Mama?
People livin' like they ain't got no mamas
I think the whole world's addicted to the drama
Only attracted to things that'll bring you trauma
Overseas, yeah, we tryna stop terrorism
But we still got terrorists here livin'
In the USA, the big CIA
The Bloods and the Crips and the KKK
But if you only have love for your own race
Then you only leave space to discriminate
And to discriminate only generates hate
And when you hate, then you're bound to get irate, yeah
Madness is what you demonstrate
And that's exactly how anger works and operates
Man, you gotta have love just to set it straight
Take control of your mind and meditate
Let your soul gravitate to the love, y'all, y'all

[Justin Timberlake:]
People killin', people dyin'
Children hurtin', hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach?
And would you turn the other cheek?
Father, father, father, help us
Send some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questioning
Where is the love?

[Will.I.am & Fergie:]
(Love) Where is the love? (The love)
Where is the love? (The love)
Where is the love, the love, the love?

[Taboo:]
It just ain't the same, old ways have changed
New days are strange, is the world insane?
If love and peace is so strong
Why are there pieces of love that don't belong?
Nations droppin' bombs
Chemical gases filling lungs of little ones
With ongoing sufferin' as the youth die young
So ask yourself, is the lovin' really gone?
So I can ask myself, really, what is going wrong
With this world that we livin' in? People keep on givin' in
Makin' wrong decisions, only visions of them dividends
Not respectin' each other, deny thy brother
A war is goin' on, but the reason's undercover
The truth is kept secret, and swept under the rug
If you never know truth, then you never know love
Where's the love, y'all? Come on (I don't know)
And where's the truth, y'all? Come on (I don't know)
And where's the love y'all?

[Justin Timberlake:]
People killin', people dyin'
Children hurtin', hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach?
And would you turn the other cheek?
Father, father, father, help us
Send some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questioning
Where is the love?

[Will.I.am & Fergie:]
(Love) Where is the love? (The love)
Where is the love? (The love)
Where is the love? (The love)
Where is the love?
(Love) Where is the love? (The love)
Where is the love? (The love)
Where is the love, the love, the love?

[Apl.de.ap:]
I feel the weight of the world on my shoulder
As I'm gettin' older, y'all people gets colder
Most of us only care about money-makin'
Selfishness got us followin' the wrong direction
Wrong information always shown by the media
Negative images is the main criteria
Infecting the young minds faster than bacteria
Kids wanna act like what they see in the cinema
Yo, whatever happened to the values of humanity? (Yeah)
Whatever happened to the fairness and equality? (Yeah)
Instead of spreading love, we spreading animosity (Yeah)
Lack of understanding leading us away from unity
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' under
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' down
It's no wonder why sometimes I'm feelin' under
Gotta keep my faith alive 'til love is found
Now ask yourself

[Will.I.am:]
Where is the love?
Where is the love?
Where is the love?
Where is the love?

[Justin Timberlake:]
Father, father, father, help us
Send some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questioning
Where is the love?

[Will.I.am & Justin Timberlake:]
Now sing with me, y'all (One world, one world)
We only got (One world, one world)
That's all we got (One world, one world)
And something's wrong with it (Yeah)
Something's wrong with it (Yeah)
Something's wrong with the w-world, world, yeah
We only got (One world, one world)
That's all we got (One world, one world)

AtTTENTION NN Ladies!!

Your eye are now Saved!!! The one and ONLY pic in my gallery is now DELETED!!! With the ID in effect and me not being ID verified you will offiically NEVER have to see a pic of me again. You may ALL celebrate.

Your Welcome Ladies!! Enjoy the eye Candy guys of NN!!!

Shy

10 Year reflection on NN

So its been 10 years I have been on this site and I’ve learned a lot of things and my bio says it all right now. A lot of people have said they have gained confidence on this site. Well it’s the opposite for me, I have lost confidence cause of this site. Over the years I have gained some friends but also lost some friends or people I thought were friends. I have changed over the years and the site has changed over the years. The biggest site change I have seen has been the adding of ID in order to post pics. I don’t like this rule at all, Yes I know its not the sites fault and it’s a business decision but I don’t feel I need to ID in order to prove who I am cause I know who I am and people that have been here long enough know who I am and I feel I don’t need to prove anything to anyone as to who I am, I had a gold shield at one time to prove I am real. The Credit card companys issued this change and the site needed to change to make money I simply am NOT going to adopt to this change as I don’t agree with it. I mean if the credit card companys told you to jump over a bridge are you gonna do it? I am simply not going to be a follower. Yes I know its not hard to ID and its not security I’m worried about, I just simply don’t think I need to prove anything to the credit card company so in that regards you will NEVER see another pic posted from me again. Now to many many people, me choosing not post pics anymore is a great thing cause you ladies deserve better than me . I have lost ALL confidence in myself and I don’t see me EVER getting it back again thanks to this site and my experiences on it. I am a fat out of shape person and I really feel I don’t belong posting on this site anymore. I mean who wants to see a fat out of shape guy like me? Nobody does so why even attempt to ID? The way I look at it is there is PLENTY of other guys that are eye candy that the women can look at that are a TON better than me on this site and I simply can’t compete with these guys cause for health reasons I will NEVER be that perfect in shape guy body that woman want and enjoy so much to see. Ladies.. you deserve better pics than mine. I have learned over the years the guy pics that get all the comment and votes are the ones that are built well and in good shape. I have gone on status before and said hi to a woman and she would ignore me cause my gallery is not that great and then a guy comments on her status and he says hi and she acknowledges that guy cause he is in great shape and has a great gallery. The women come to this site for the eye candy Not to look at us fat out of shape guys weather we have a nice personality or not. This is just a realization and an observation over the years that I have experienced being on this site. So to all the ladies that have seen my pics that I HAD posted in the past I sincerely apologize that you have witnessed my hideous fat out shape body and can’t begin to tell you how sorry I truly am.

Now have there been some positive experiences on this site? Yes I have made some truly great friends on this site and the friendships I have made on this site are the SOLE reason I choose to stick around. A lot of friends I don’t talk to much but we still communicate once in a while to make sure we are okay and that is okay cause I know life can be busy for many people. There are a couple of other friends from here that I am still very close with and communicate almost on the daily with. I will NEVER forget the people I have met in real life here and will forever be grateful for the friendships I have created on here. How long will I continue to stick around? That I am not sure but I will let the right people know if I decide to leave to good. This is all just MY opinion about my experience on this site and how I feel now with 10 years under my belt here.

Thank you for taking the time out to read my reflection and how I feel.

Peace and LOVE

Shy

Why are pics now when I open them they are now automatically BIG and I can't vote on them? Id like to vote on my friends pics and its not letting me view them as such that I can vote HOT! any ideas why and how I can fix this?

Looked at the Front page today ( In the guy section) and just as I am right, Its ALL perfect body and fit guys on the front page for popular guy pics. I hate being right but if Im right Im right, All women just want to look at is Fit guys with perfect bodies NOT us fat ugly ones, I rest my case

Shy the ugly fat guy

Happy Birthday to me!!! It's okay I already know I'm a fat piece of shit and will just keep myself out of the spotlight as much as possible so to me it will just be another day.. I just want cake... ha ha.

Shy