WendySilvia's blog post - What's happening with Wendy

Well.. my kidlet turns 18 this year.. Yay.. ha.. I definitely have some empty nest feelings.. But we have been actively planning for this, for the past 7 years.

I am still disabled and unable to make more than what the government kindly gives me each month.. I lose a lot of money each month due to not having a dependent anymore.. so.. I am having to give up my apartment..

The housing crisis all over the place makes it hard to find another apartment.. plus.. no one else will rent to me when they have other people, who make loads more money than I..

So.. I seem to get my long ago wish.. and I'm moving into a tiny home.. which is also a panel van.. ha..

I will be spending time converting it into a nice camper home.. I will be in it until at least next October. I do have access to my dad's garage.. so I can pull the van in there when it is too cold for my furnace.

I plan to build the interior all my self.. should be fun! I have a dead line for next May.. I want to get a seasonal camp site at my favorite campground. It should be super fun.. it is close enough to the city I live in so I can still be close to friends and family.. plus I would invite everyone to come for free camping.

My son is going to his step mother's house.. she has loads of room and would love to spend time with him.. I am grateful for her still stepping up even after her and my son's dad split up.

So.. life is going to be drastically different in just under three months. I am both excited and terrified. Ha. I am told this is normal feelings for such a lifestyle change.

I plan to do way more exercising as I will be so bored being in the van all day.. there is a lot of KM's (miles) of city pathways that I have a goal to walk on every inch of them.. I also have a big zoo.. and some other touristy places that I would not mind spending the next year, exploring.

It has been years since I took any photos of myself.. I did get a lot bigger so me not wanting to share that.. seems to be part of the reason why I stayed away so long..

Other reasons have to do with my mindset.. I was overwhelmed by the selfish men who would ask me to talk dirty to them.. and would stop talking to me as soon as they were able to jerk off.. I don't dirty talk.. but I am very open with my answers.. some.men can ask questions and get off by my answers.. which is fine with me.. except they always leave right after.. no after care at all.. such a shame! Made me feel bad!

Another reason was, COVID was traumatizing for me.. I was too scared and retreated into myself.. I feel absolutely horrible for all the friends I left.. I should have at least let you all know I was going.. The problem with that was it was not at the time intentional.. I just left.. and then as the days went by.. I got more and more anxious.. I didn't want to burden anyone with my fears.. it got easier to be away.. Once again.. I apologize to anyone and everyone who I worried by being away. Hugs!!!

So.. Why I came back now is.. I am going to need some companions for this next adventure.. This community has always been a place of ego bosting for me.. and there are so many of you who I can chat with. I am wanting to build up my village.. people who can help me pass the time.. People who are not mean and cruel.. People who make me feel like I matter. That is here at NN!

Things have changed for sure.. but the bones of the site are still alive and kicking..

I thank you for your time and I send you about a million hugs!