WendySilvia's blog post - Tiny rant.. not directed at anyone specific.. just a build up of arrrrgggggg... and need a release.. Not an O.. but a relase just the same.

I think (nah, I know it to be facts) I am a touch bitter.. ha.. What? Wendy is bitter?? ha.. yup.. And it is nothing new for Wendy and her viewers..

I have yet to find a man who gives a banana about making me orgasm.. They all say.. "Oh.. it is very important for my lady to cum first".. and yet.. that is fucking bullshit eh.. All things men say just to get what they want.. lol.. I guess if I am down and sad.. all I should think of is.. hey this new guy says he is different.. he will care.. he will have the patience.. he will be the one that will make me O.. and as many times as possible. What a laugh! So.. what if that is zero.. now what.. ? Give up.. move on.. say to me.. you are impossible to make cum.. It wont be anything I haven't heard before.
I know not all men in the world are like the many I have come across.. but.. they do seem to be all future men.. and or live impossibly far away, or worse they are already taken.. I live in this small single bitter land. I dont mind it here.. singleness is great. I am able to successfully keep my bitterness at bay.. that is until someone asks the questions.. "What do you like in a man? and What do you like in sex?" Well... in a man.. I want a nice.. kind one (and so much more).. as for sex.. I dont have a fucking clue.. cause asking for someone who wants to make me Wendy, cum.. is a myth.. a unicorn with wings.. a non existent thing.. not even a dream.. cause this dream will never ever fucking come true..

le sigh.

Again.. is it odd to have people on a nudy site, not at all interested in sexy time with others on the site? NOPE.. I see it all the time.. I swear.. I am one of them! I have zero interest in playing here.. I have zero interest in giving my O to anyone online ever.. Even if they could make me blow.. it is never gonna happen.. I had a dream once.. where I would be ok with a man cumming and I dont when we are together.. only if I got to cum three times more than they did.. why? cause maybe that could make up for the times where I did not get anything and that man went off to dream land.. fuck that is a piss off too.. I know that some cant help it.. but holy fuck balls.. best way to get yourself a one way ticket away from Wendy forever.. cum and go.. like how hard is it to talk for a few min after.. share how it felt.. share how it was.. did we do ok.. do I matter to you now that the cum has flown.. show me by staying awake and talking to me a bit of pillow talk.. then.. off you go.. and no more tears from Wendy's eyes. Even then.. Wendys dream.. was flawed.. I was giving up too much.. Too much for the unworthy.. Unrealistic dreams.. cause these men are only there for themselves!

I look at this from two angles.. one.. the self preservation side.. I have had too much pain.. why the fuck add more.. the old saying "dr it hurts when I do this.. then dont do that!" is something I live by.
Then the other side of.. well mythical new man did not do one thing wrong to me.. so give him a chance.. he does not ever deserve the past being placed upon him. 100% agree and this is the fair way to be!

blech barf and booo.. is where i have landed.. who wants to do that over and over again.. meet someone new.. spend time with them.. only for them to just leave.. insanity?? I think so! Is dating not just a big loop of insanity.. doing the same thing over and over again expecting a different result.. ah ya!

There is a part in a movie Bolt.. where mittens the cat says.. "They take their love and they leave you" .. That is how Wendy feels about all the men who have come along.. and who have yet to make it here.. They will take their love.. and they will leave me. (and with no orgasms.. ha)

Yes Wendy is in therapy.. so maybe she can shed these feeling of blah.. but for now.. writing them out for strangers to see.. seems to be the path I am taking right now.
Thanks for reading.

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