The whole world is asleep,
The cool night softly weeps,
As I look outside the window,
And think just how a while ago,
I had been laughing and drinking,
How relaxed and warm I was feeling,
From chilling with two of my boys,
Enjoying the bliss of simple joys,
To getting a call from someone,
Who I thought our friendship was done,
So instead of going home,
I met up with you, bars we roam,
Sitting next to this friend,
How quickly attention ends,
A pretty face or willing thighs,
Quickly captures your eyes,
A hand me down of sorts,
Who faults a sailor in any port,
And all my mind can think of,
I thought you wanted love,
Before you went upstairs,
You saw me standing there,
And asked if I was okay,
I thought, what do you want me to say,
And then you walked away,
Into the arms of an easy lay,
I was entertained for a while,
By a silver tongued smile,
I was able to clearly see,
That he was closer to you than me,
I could hear those missed sounds,
Of two people laying down,
And all that ran through my head,
I should be home in my bed,
I realized you didn't want me here,
Not in true light, not so near,
Even though I've said it before,
You don't have to be the past anymore,
I do not want from you anything,
But a friendship everlasting,
I wish I understood why I'm scared,
That I've laid my soul to you bare,
And you are still a mystery to me,
Unfathomable like the bottom of the sea,
i have such a concern of what you're goin thru,
But I realize I can't keep dwelling upon you,
I have a life I need to get under control,
A soul journey, spiritual stroll,
I keep thinking about so many fears,
That keep me standnig here,
While I keep writing what is on my heart,
On every page I write I impart,
Some piece of my life, my hope my dreams,
That will never be understood it seems,
And I know it is the negative side of life,
That wants to hinder me keep me in strife,
Dwelling on past trangressions I think I need to atone,
A self-hatred that lies deep in my bones,
The key to my freedom and life work is my own,
Only I can find it, claim it, I alone,