My mentle heath has been all over the place in 2021, after losing my dad back in 7/12/2020, I ended up having a break down, didnt want to be around anyone anymore, just waiting the pain to stop or even get easer to live with out my dad, i then splite up with the boyfriend. felt so low before but not like this, i didnt know where to turn, i got my a car to get me out and about and then in august i starting going to see my kids which helped me alot. I started talking to a someone ive always like years ago and got my self a better car, things are starting to look up again, got my self a evening job which i enjoyed doing, so in nov my kids and i had planed for me to go up to the kids on the 19/12/2021. I found the 7th dec very hard as it was a year that dad passed away but looking forword to seeing the kids got me throw it, so i've gone mad with gifts for the kids and on the 15th dec i was out working and someone went in to the side of my car, i turned me car off and got out the car walked round the car to find a V space in the side of the car, the bloke was talken to hospital and the cops spoke to me and told me that his wing mirrow had hit me in the head and was on my seat next to me, his speedoo was in my back parchel shelf by the back window, the cop side he was speeding, he said the speedoo was stuck on 60 and he was in a 50 zone, the cop said his was doing at lot more then 60 coming down the hill and round the corner and hit me while i was turning right, the cop said im sorry to say your car is a right off, anyways i ended up going to the hospital and ended up with couple broke ribs, inside broswing where seat bet went across me, and didnt get to go and see me kids, so yer last couple of years have been shit,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, please let 2022 be a better year for me

My dad was told he had cancer 2 years ago he had all the treatment they could give him and in March this year he told me and my brother they have stopped the treatment as he got the all clear. We was so happy for him, knowing it could come back at any time.

I was living in Liverpool at this time but it didn't work out, so I moved in to a mates camervan back down west Sussex.

Three weeks ago my brother called asking me if I could pick dad up from the hospital and set with him till my brother got they as the hospital called him, so I picked my dad and stayed with him. When my brother got they he asked my dad what's going on.

Dad told us that the cancer was back, I huged him and he as all skin and bones, he used to be big but he has listed it all.
He asked me if I would move in here with him and to be his carer, I said of couse I will, so I move in to his flat.

On Sunday he had a fall, I manage to get him up on the lou, he had hit his head, my brother and my other got back and my brother took over and helped him get up and dad said he needed to sick, he was sick just the once but there was about a pint of blood in it, they both said that's not good. After getting him back to his bed did what we had to do to get him to the hospital, he was taken to A&E. At 12 he called my brother and said he was still waiting to be seen.

Then my brother called me telling me his going to see dad as the hospital has just called and said its not good, your dad is very very ill. We got to the hospital at about 3am.

The doctor took us in to a room and said I'm sorry to say its not good new, he has been bring more blood up and it's coming out the other end too, he said the blood is coming from the cancer and said we trying to stop the bleed but he said any more bleed is deadly to him, he told us the cancer was all over his body.
We said but he told us he had the all clear, that why no more treatment was needed, then he said no it was stopped becouse there was not working.
Only the last three weeks I've looked after him and he never told me was dieing, never said he was in any pain, just keeped saying he feels so useless.

The doctor ask us if we wanted them to try to bring him back and we both said no.
We went and saw him, he did look good, I knew it was a matter of time. At about 4am we went out side for a cig, we was going to stay and have one more before going to in to dad but same made us go back in, good job we did.

As when we got backat about 4.30am, I wake in fast to see dad bring sick and it's was blood, with me one side of the bed and my brother the other side we both told him we loved him and told him he could go now and at 4.54 he passed away.....

not been around much, as trying to sort things out. I went for a nice weekend away with my other half 7 July and met his family and some of his mates, didn't want to go back down south, Now a month later and we have packed up everything and have move and have taken on a pub in Tipton, its not stoke where we want to be but only 41 miles so not to bad but im loving it here, got a 3 bedroom flat free. be even better when my daughter moves up here

not been around much, as trying to sort things out. I went for a nice weekend away with my other half 7 July and met his family and some of his mates, didn't want to go back down south, Now a month later and we have packed up everything and have move and have taken on a pub in Tipton, its not stoke where we want to be but only 41 miles so not to bad but im loving it here, got a 3 bedroom flat free. be even better when my daughter moves up here

Well that lastest long (not) before he showed his true colors, well single again, oh well shit happens

I have just found out my ex passed away Monday. He has been fighting stage 4 cancer for several months. So very hard to say good by to him. But we all know he is so much better off. No more pain.
Robert was such a caring man. Loved to fish and cook. He was an amazing cook.
He loved his family and would do anything for any of us.
He will be missed so very much.
Please pray for his family through these sad times.

I've not be on much lately as i have had a lot going on what with living with my other half who was not happy me being on here even though I have been on this site way before I got with him and I told him I would never leave as I have made some very close mates on here over the last 12 years of being here and then i passed my driving test and got a car which meant I could go out without him which he didn't like even though I would only be at my mothers or my daughters place and then I got a job which meant I was out every day doing double shifts in a pub, and I love the job, he didn't like it.
I've been made to feel like shit for a while now by him
so yesterday on the way back from a meeting he had to go to, I told him it was over, no there is not any other bloke before you ask, I go to work, he sits on his ass all day and does fuck all. just so glad I never got married to him. I went to work last night and could not stop smiling which I've not done in a long time. I woke up this morning feeling happy and at about 2 pm I picked up the car keys and it was nice not having to worry about having to get back to him and I went to my mothers and then picked my daughter and her other shaft up and went to the pub had a couple of cokes as I'm driving and took them home at about 7 and had a coffee with them then went back to the pub to meet up with my dad for more cokes and a couple of games of pool and didn't get back in until 11 pm and I had fun

so on sunday i ask if i had got the job in the pub after doing three shifts,

the boss sent this to me on monday if you can do three more shifts this week Friday evening, Saturday lunch and Sunday lunch to see how you get on when it's busier you will be pared with Tom on all of these. Then I'll make the decision after those shifts.

worked last night and got on well again and today after about half hour of being there the boss ask to have a word with me,

he told me that he is happy with my work and offered me the job

anyone know where chewiebacca has gone

Happy New year to all