hmmm, getting drunk and visiting chat or could that be visiting chat and getting drunk? oh well, I hope that I dont become a NUISANCE to anyone, thus I have now come to see that chat and alcohol and tunes go together quite well.
I see alot of bull crap people now as in...dont know who a person really is unless you get them to strip and show that they really are a man or a woman. and I aint goin to do any grabbing to make sure anytime soon, yet it does sort of remind me of like a room filled with people and the lights are down real low so that one who should meet another must grope and feel their way through the greetings process in order to just get the facts straight. hmmm I think thats called the bar scene. ohhh th-memories. wink. and boy do I have some stories to tell with those. umm no thanks dave...look, I have an idea...see that mountain wayyy over there? yea...so go climb it or somethin ok?...my nerves!...
so where was I?? oh yea, so I wonder where is this lala land on which these type of people come from?
because I am now at the point that if one wishes to chat with me on this PRV thing then Im not gonna...if I dont know who it is that is. and so now I feel as if Im in a middle of a double life, as in on one hand I love the idea to chat with any and all, yet on the other Im restrained from doing so with the feeling that this other has motives far beyond mine...like sexual motives, in being a man in the guise of a woman, and being a man as say...just a man. sooo I dont want sex. period! just good ol' friendly convos. yet this websites chat is not a convo. website is it? in being...swapping recipes, pictures of the kids, and how I once fixed my car with only a spoon[actually I did] thus this website is of swapping cyber spit, pictures of my dildo, and how I once fixed my itch with only a spoon[actually I did] and so this chat has evolved in my world as the most unique form of sexual variances to have been allowed to come into my home. heck, sometimes I even have to hide the eyes of my cat, as she lies in my lap. wink.
and boy did I pick a name, which has now become synonamous with being a woman. as for me...its just my middle name.
and so thats enough on chat for now...just wish that I didnt have to ignore the PRV. yes I've tried to say no thanks on the main board yet, that can be inept at times.
remember, none are the wisest, until they have reached the top.
hey!!! stupid! your on the wrong mountain! I said that one! over there!. tee,he,he that'll keep him awhile huh.

"Your Blog has been viewed: 1200 times"
such a nice round number, yet only auto mechanics and auto repair use it, in their estimate of repairs to your car, as in...$1200.00 hmmm.

so, after giving it a couple of days rest here, I feel the need to share something that I had mentioned in my last blog that I had said, as that the lord is a he and a she. as I had stated that as being a fact. and so now I will explain in the manner in which I have come to understand him/her. ok?ok.
and boy I can imagine a new visitor now, as they visit this blog as in what the hell is this crap?? thus never to return. oh well. wink,wink guess they'll just have to start at the beginning huh. sorry new visitors. and welcome to my blog.
ok, short and sweet... when the lord came to me back then, I was a very emotionally and mentally broken down person, and I had gone to try and sort out all that I was trying to realize in being what was the truth and what was not for I could not go and find the answer to this delema[sp?] any other way than to just go over all that I knew at that point in my head and hope that I could come up with the real truth on this. sort of taking the pieces of a puzzle that was mixed with the truth and mixed with fiction and putting all the right pieces together thus finding the answer, but as hard as I had tried I was lost and I could not sort it all out. so thats when I had to goto the lord to please help me in finding the real truth in this mess that I had in my head.
and just as I am sitting here writting this now and just as you are sitting there reading this a voice came as in this same way as we are writting and reading this now, and so I'm trying to offer you the idea of what kind of voice that this was so im saying now that it was the same voice that you here now within your head as you read this. and so with that knowledge that we both know now as the kind of voice it was then I can now say that this was the voice of the lord that had spoken to me thus offering to me the answer that I was seeking and as if a house was atop my shoulders thus it was then lifted away and the truth had become clear as a bell to me then. and my answer to the real truth had been trully realized.
so now as I said that I will explain my understanding of the lord in being of a man and a women then you now have the idea of what I am saying as well, for the lord will come to as you, and as he/she does come to you he/she will come to you as how you are, and not some booming voice from above, as he/she will come in a manner that is you, with all the intellect that you have, with all the caracter that you possess, and even as all the humor that you have as well...so like I said he/she will come to you as-you-are. yet not in your voice as what you hear now as you read and I write this yet a voice that is yours yet actually talking to you with just a simple statement or phrase to what you seek, thus not to return say like a conversation, for he/she wont go any further than what you need to know or understand.
so now since I am a man the lord will come to me as a man as my own self so that "I" will be best in understanding as any other, sort of like you being your own best friend, you wont better understand any other than yourself, and so goes the women. right?
and you can think of it this way as well how could we better understand the lord if he should come to us speaking arabic, or french, or even your own language? yet from a voice that is unfamiliar to us?...so after the lord had come to me I just sat there and laughed with this increadible sense of knowledge that the lord came to me as "I" am, with my own logical sense of reasoning, and humor, and intellect like I had just said.
so as I now know how the lord will come me or you I now understand that the lord is in a sense a woman and a man. wink.
so now dont get me wrong as I havent gone and grabbed a bible and hit the sermon trail, as I am still me and nothings changed, yet I do have a better understanding of the lord now, our God... and thats a fact!
man does this feel great to share this, as I have told only one other person since that night. four years ago.
so back to the fun stuff as well in being I'm off for practically the next two weeks and I'm going to enjoy it all!
...and you said short and sweet dave, yea right. oops. he,he. sorry.
I have proof read this only once, so forgive the typos as I'm letting it fly!

removed some blogs. sorry.

you know ever since that night when the lord came to me [see profile"the best day of my life was..."] he came to me with the answer that I was desperatly trying to find...and so ever since that night I am more or less increasing my understanding of him/her as in how he [he for me-she for the women.trust me on this fact ] continues to offer to "set me right" and like always has left it up to me to whether see it for what it is or to miss the point all together, which does happen because his offer to help can be as sutle as a leaf falling from a tree and so it can be easily missed if one has not looked to see it fall.
and so in this case he has seen fit to set me straight and has shown me that I must trully appreciate what he has blessed me with and not to carry it like some thing to show off and boast about so to speak.
and so I have done that in spouting about my sexual rewards and good looks as I had done in the last blog which will be gone as of this blog, thus being left for the ones who has already read it and for the ones who has not then Im sorry if you should not understand this blog. but this one does explain itself here.
so as I had written it in being disturbed about some findings here, I went on to show off and boast of myself...well that didnt sit to well with "him" and yes he did offer me to see the falling leaf...in a manner that came to me like a sledge hammer, wow some leaf huh? wink.
so now heres what happened.
yesterday I was going through different categories of pics sort of mindlessly as I was still more or less asleep since I had just gotten out of bed. and so as I was fishing through pics I came across a young man[30ish] who looked despairingly lonely and so obviously small and frail. with just this single picture of himself posted here he chose to submit himself with the request for women to message him. and so I sat here and looked at him...I saw that he was naked, trying to stand, yet was bent foward at the waist as he could not stand upright with his hands covering his genitals in obvious modesty. and so as I continued to look at him I was then struck with an admiration of what this man was willing to do for the sake of his own needs that is so abundant and overwhelming to us all who are blessed with this and yet it eludes him. and so as I began to admire him I thought my God what a man who has so much to lose with so little to offer, yet has more ambition, strength and guts that I will ever have. and so in my words he is trully more of a man than I. I felt small like a grain of sand as this man hit me right between the eyes. so this is all I can say, as I cannot go further...
so thankyou lord for setting me straight. and I pray that you will reward this man with his needs as he deserves more than all I will ever have.... David.

uploaded some early pics to share here in my photo collection, taken about two years ago with a web cam/digital mini cam. sooo, anyone interested then go take a peek.

well just got off work, and as I feared I missed the 1000 viewed mark and as I had asked for the one to leave a comment in being the one to be 1000 they did not...such a simple game of interest that I have, thus not to be enjoyed by others. oh well, I'll keep it up for myself then. and thanks again juice. wish I could sit down and talk with her about this place. as words that can be said in unknowing understanding cannot be erased once sent in writing. yet could be better explained with words by voice.
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okay, lets see...hmmm...we had xmas dinner at work t'day, nuttin fancy yet it is a good feeling to sit down with fellow workers and create a solitude with out the pressure and other circumstances that we share in this high pressure/stressful job of ours. wink,wink.
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sorry to keep going on about enjoying my time off, but if you should just finish working 24 hours in two days then the time off is greatly welcomed, never mind the three day work weekend which adds up to 36 hours in just three days. ugg! and soooo now its the weekend off!!! yehaaa!!!
Im all set for the tunes and I got the good stuff[not the best mind you] for the weekend and I'm going to upload a picture of this stuff as I am trying out the high res. capability with this camera.
so, more blogs,blogs,blogs-more drinks,drinks,drinks-and more of making an ass,ass,ass out of myself. like I had in the brief chat room visit the other night. ooops.
so, later then ok?....ummm....ok?....hey were did everybody go?
ummm we dont want to be here when you come back dave...sorry. tee,he,he.

looks like Im going to miss the 1,000 viewed mark, sooo, anyone who may be number 1,000 please copy/paste it here in the comment section. thanks Dave.

okay, nuttin new. back to work t'day[now past] and t'morrow and then comes the three day weekend! yehaaa!!!
I sort of jumped the gun tonight in sending in my best pics in artistic nudes, as I sort of wanted to save them for later. but since I see how the green ones turned out then I felt like I needed to rebound...
its a rather large set. so now I must anguish on the thought of reducing the number. and to give alittle background on them as that some or most of them were taken when the evening sun had shown through the window during the spring time as I sit at the comp.
and some of them were taken later as when the evening sun had shone in the window during the fall as well.
to me as of now this is my "crowning acheivement" in photo art, so I am quite proud to present them here.
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I visited the "rejects" yesterday. what a collection is all I can say about it.
yet I started a list on the ones who had sent in a few and then were subsequently rejected, thus I was going to mention them here, but as I tried to research the ones who were no longer submitting after what had been rejected I sort of failed to keep track, so now I'll just have to say that there were a few women who were quite stunning and attractive enough to have been apreciated in what they had to offer here, but yet they chose to not pursue any further submissions thus losing the chance to be seen and as I said apreciated here. so my thought for them is...what a loss....thanks to the poor quality in the photo taken.
Im sorry that I had lost track of who they were, yet I feel now that its probably better to leave them as is...to the imagination.
sooo, t'morrow nite its party time again!
remember, if the beauty of one shall be captured for just a fleeting moment in time, then that moment shall never be returned again, and so if that moment on which has been captured is being reflected as just a haze and blurr then the memory of that moment will become just a haze and blurr as well in time...thus leaving the one who has viewed what has been captured a sense of what will become of the memory of this beauty in the future...as just a haze and blurr.

led zepps's in the house!!...WHAT?!! I cant hear you!!!...I said, LED ZEPPS IN THE HOUSE!!!!!! look!, you need to remove your headphones I cant hear you!!!...no, you need to remove YOUR headphones!!, I can hear myself fine!!! well just push pause so that I can hear you ok?!!!... yeah! ok!!!, PAUSE FOR THE CAUSE!!! right!, gotcha!...whatever!...WHAT?!!!...I SAID WHATEVER!!!...ohyeah!, pause for the cause whatever?!...IM going to turn off the music now!!, I cant understand you!!!...whatever!!!...WHAT?!!!...aghhh!!!,just forget it!!!
uummm, forget it???, you didnt just sort of lose it did ya?!!!...WHAT?!!!...I said LOSE IT!!!...yeah!, youve lost it!...WHAT?!!!...he,he,he...SEEYA!!! Im outta here...WHAT?!!!...
remember, dont drink and blog... the crap isnt that funny...when you sober up. wink,wink.