I've been meaning to adjust my attitude so there's a smile on my face more often. That has got to be the real answer in life. But then when I starting scrolling through NN. The realization that most everyone else on NN seems to have the fantasy life we regular mortals could only wish for.

Surely, it can't be as good as it appears .. or is it?

At least when the brass ring shows up in my territory I'll be quick enough to grasp for it!

Today's fun fact: I may not have the biggest tool in the shed but I can last forever or until you've gotten off as many times as you can take it!

Al quiet on the home front. but my wife hasn't gotten home yet. No doubt she'll be in a pissy mood because she's been off work for two weeks. You know hot it is when you first go back after a two week vacation?

Me... no vacation this summer. I rather just perv on NN! Whenever I find the time. I really do need some quality time!

This morning my daughter and her new husband packed up their belongings and moved to their new home. For them it was the beginning of their own life together. We have happy and excited for them.

After they left I found myself crying like a baby because they had gone. Sad but cheerful at the same time. It made all the previous problems seem so small.

I had to get busy so I mowed 3 different yards then roto-tilled a neighbors garden. OMG! Was I tired. All that in the first half of the day.

I just uploaded a new song which I've been remixing for over a week. It's not half bad but maybe tomorrow I'll upload the simpler version for comparison.

My voice greeting!

My daughter and the new son-in-law are arriving home in a few minutes from Florida. Tomorrow they'll pack up what's left in the house and move 3 hours west into their own place. It's got to be pretty exciting times for them.
Signed,

Proud Dad!

Here ya go.. I was thinking it was Friday... date night. How could I lose? I was talkative outgoing, concerned and we had drank some wine.

The stage was set, I even lit a few candles in the room. But when we were changing for bed.. I moved closer to help he undress everything went to hell. She brushed me aside saying I made her nervous and uncomfortable! Where did that come come?

My male ego was crushed but I just remained silent. A few moments later she tried say.. OK.. now. But the moment had vanished and my heart wasn't in it at all. A complete role reversal.

My wife tried to play nice for a moment but I said "I can't do this". I just wanted to sleep and forget she broke any self esteem I had collected! It wasn't long before she was seaming mad and left the room to sleep the guest room. Before she left she said all you think about is yourself what about me?

Everything was was twisted. No one was thinking clearly. This morning I thought my life was over but we began talking. No common ground yet.

Now I feel really old! Yikes! You might say I've been bitten by a bit of depression. You know.. getting older and getting my daughter married off!

All in the same week!

life does go on. So with a new spirit I'll try not look backward but instead look forward. It sure wouldn't hurt to squeeze some good loving in between! That's what I really need to put my male ego at rest.

Things change on a dime. My wife's car was packed for her trip out of town when she just decided not to go. he weather was going to be bad where she was going and she had just spent quality time with her family. It had nothing to do with the fact that he's out of town during my birthday.

I had been looking to having the house to myself .. all that gone after getting the call at work. At 4:00 she called to say we were going to a free outdoor concert after work. Didn't have a choice there. When I got home she told me she had changed her mind and we were staying home instead. Why can't she just stick to a plan!

Last night she said we're already celebrated my birthday in her mind so today will be just another typical day. My son was flying in from a business trip in Oklahoma City to take me out to dinner. Now it's 4 of us since my wife invited his wife too. She informed me of all this after I got home.

It just seems I have so little input in the day to day happenings especial this week. And I was looking forward to some nice "me time" on nn. Reality of life does give us little twists and turns!

No, I'm not going anywhere but it'll seem like a vacation. My wife is leaving town until Saturday to go hang out at the family house on the lake. My daughter & so in law are down in Miami on their honeymoon so the house will seem so empty.

My wife must be feeling guilty especially knowing she'll miss my birthday. Even though our bank book has taken a big hit with the wedding she did surprise me with an early gift which was a nice 26" flat screen LCD HD TV for the bedroom. It's still in the box but won't be for long. She knows I love my gadgets. It was unexpected!

Anyway, it's early morning now but I'll have all the time in the world to perv until I've had my fill. Hmm.... how much is that? We will find out won't we!

This past weekend was so beautiful yet pretty damn stressful. My daughter looked so grown up it was difficult to imagine her not being my little girl.

Sleep was something no one was getting the past days. This morning I put the newlywed couple on a plane at 5:00 a.m. heading for Miami where they will stay, relaxing on the beach and whatever.

I was so proud of them. They are perfect for each other. When they return from their honeymoon then their real lives start by moving into their new place 3 hours from home. It'll be different around here.... quiet might be the right term.

Yesterday all our out of town guests left and that was a nice start. My brother & I spent some quality time together. We don't many chances for that. The Mrs & I were happy the whole event had no giant glitches. If only we had a bit of free time for ourselves. It wouldn't have mattered. We were both exhausted nearly every minute of every hour. One might expected at least one good one squeezed in somewhere along the way but there wasn't.

Tomorrow my wife leaves town on her own for a little R&R leaving me in a quiet house. I'm looking forward to it.