Most people including myself look forward to a Friday night but this wasn't exactly expected. My wife just lost it mentally last night. Call it imploding and crushing herself inward.

Both my son & I tried our best to console her but the self inflicted weight of stress was too great. She spent most the night just crying and pushing away the world. We'll see how it goes today but it'll be like walking on egg shells.

Maybe we should have seen this coming but didn't. I sense it'll be a long quiet weekend as we try to sort out what exactly is going on. The break up of my son's marriage, my daughter's upcoming marriage has been absorbing all her emotional strength there's nothing left for our very own relationship.

I find myself getting up earlier & earlier because I can't sleep. There's definitely no reason to lounge around in bed. Maybe getting myself to work earlier will bring some relief to this self imposed depression.

If I had the balls to truly sort through my feeling I'd be happier but it affects too many other people. Sometime the good of the many does is better than doing something just for myself.

I think I'm doing all this to myself lately. You might say I've been beating myself up but if I can just change my attitude maybe things would be better.

All I know is I felt shitty when I wake up and go to bed. In between work isn't so bad. I need a new life or something.

At least that's the way my wife was making me feel today. In the middle of the night she caught me just beginning to take things into my own hands and she gave hell about it. She needs to get a life1

I spent the entire day outside in the cold. The wind was blowing and at times I thought my fingers would freeze! But I had a wonderful time taking pictures... my one true love I'm allowed to do!

It's 6:15 a.m. and were beginning to get everything ready to drive across the state for the rave. My son is racing and I'm going along as his support staff if you want to cal it that.

Maybe I'm more excited than him because I got up before anyone else. It's been a while since I took a road trip ... just us two. It'll be fun and my wife is looking forward to being alone for the day.

We'll be home just before dinner. So it's an all day event. Dang! I wish it were warmer. Our temperature gauge says it's 22 degress outside. It might reach 40 if we're lucky.

Ever since my son moved back home the dynamics are so different. But it's a lot like maybe 10 years ago. We had the house to ourselves for so long then you throw in another person and wham... it's like he never moved away & got married.

In a way it's very nice but OMG! I can't ever seem to just hop on the computer whenever I want. Sure, we've all got laptops now but he sure is on the web nearly all the time. So for at least a time time this afternoon I better get all the perving in & quickly!

There was no agenda other than being together but sometimes that’s the true beauty of the experience. Let’s call it just plain spontaneity, something that just hasn’t been a part of my life in quite some time. Most of the time these moments are kept private but then I wasn’t expecting the WOW Factor!

We were separated by no more than an inch. Close enough that you were afraid your heart might pound so loudly it could be felt if not heard. She whispered “hi there”. That was enough for me. I had this vision of wanting her to just desire me which is a concept that I’m still unaccustomed to these days. Without even thinking I simply dropped my pants to the floor and stepped clear of them. Maybe she was startled from my boldness but there was no nothing to indicate that because she didn’t hesitate to smile while reaching down to touch my quickly hardening cock.

“hoooo..” I only grunted in amazement and nearly lost it right there and then. Within 30 seconds my cock was throbbing, swollen and hard! For the first time in a long while I felt like a real man and desired. Taking control I moved her toward the bed while yanking down her pants. Kneeling down in front of her my tongue darted with excitement between her legs. There was denying the female scent of sex that filled my brain and the released me from any inhibitions that sometimes surround me.

Slowly I kissed her softly as though it was the very first kiss. She whispered that she wanted me inside here right then. We both knew what we wanted. My cock felt like it was going to explode as I eased in just a little at first but I couldn’t stop there. I hadn’t realized that only one leg was on the bed while I begin thrusting into her with passion that hadn’t been there in quite some time. Only when I felt a surge did I back off from the edge.

Five or six minutes went by before I suggested we should move up further on the bed. Almost in a frantic state of mind we moved but not very far. Does that say what the mood was like or what? It was definitely one very exciting evening. Most of the time, I try my best not to lose the load because I want the moment to last forever. That night I gave in little by little until how and where was the only final outcome.

Guys are visual aren’t they? She knew that and well, I did certainly enjoy the experience of being a man and treated like a king. It’s not often I can go to work wearing one hell of a smile beaming from one side to the other.

It wasn't long before I was hard yet again. I do like to advantage of my personal time don't I?

It seems someone in my family really can multi-task. My son took this cell phone photo showing a new piece of equipment he had emailed to a friend. OMG! Look at the dash!

All I can say is please.... let me have some time alone or at least with my special friend!