i just went a bit ghetto in the forums....felt kinda good...

hope all of you had an awesome weekend except that one asshole..

) jacq

okay so my counselor said bobs gonna be okay...not that i'm gonna do that again... just glad for it....

happy hump day sexy's .... mwa jacquie

happy monday!!! i'm gonna have a wonderful evening

omg... lmao... mortified a bit.... got a new chair for the computer... was out running around friday and well it was outside this business with a paper on it saying 5 bucks... what the hell i needed one so i got it ... it's a big leather black super comfy..... captain chair??

i know you all might find it hard to believe but i'm somewhat of a perv... so when the neighbor took bob to the lake and pauly took tikka to the woods i thought perfect i can perv....

i'm sitting in this big black comfy chair no pants ... no panties ... legs spread like there's no tomorrow with my vib...all of a sudden the door opens and it's bob.... the look on his face when he said oh god and shut the door quick as he could....well the only hope i have to ever get that out of my head is if i get alzheimer's....

what could i do? i closed out the window took my vib... not even my panties or shorts and ran to my room....crawled in bed and slept for about 2 hours....

does anyone have any idea the effect something like this has on a kid???? anyone ever walk in on their parent when they were younger????

hope you all had a super weekend.... jacq

i've heard so many times people bitch about their kids... grades ... actions... disrespect... blah blah blah...
i hear you all i really truly do...but aren't these all things that can be changed possibly????

we all want the best for our kids... and believe... if a mom can take away pain and hurt we would give it to ourselves...it's our nature to want the best and to be able to give the best to our kids....

i know i have always tried to make stuff alright for my kids when i could....sometimes shit happens....

sometimes shit is out of a parents control.... then what? i've said it before and i'll say it again... i hope to hell nobody ever has to deal with what i am dealing with....

not looking for a pity party... just saying... jacq

21st birthday... i asked her weeks ago what she was gonna do...she said a couple of the other co-workers wanted her to go to applebee's for drinks... she told me "why would i want to hang out with old people on my 21st let alone people i don't like"

got a call from the little cupcake about 30 minutes ago wanting me to come party with her... yah i still got it!!!

on another note... our loan mod was approved... now i'm to high on life to sleep....

happy hump day sexies.... mwa jacquie

a year ago yesterday i got news that would forever change me...hell, my whole fam's life.... when i think back over the year and the things that have happened... most of it ugly... i feel really lucky to be where i'm at now....

i've come to accept the fact that some things are out of my control... i have to let it go and just live life and enjoy here and now.... that the only peoples actions and re-actions i can control are my own....

i've always believed that everything happens for a reason... and i guess some reasons are harder to figure out than others... maybe they never will be figured out....

not saying i won't have anymore bad days.... but lately i've been feeling pretty peaceful....

happy friday loves..... mwa jacqueline

facebook is starting to worry me.... my mom get's on mine sometimes to do my farm and what nots.... seems last nite she had a really good convo with serg... yikes and lol....

happy hump day all you lovely pervs.... mwa jacquie

all you loves made me cry with your comments.... believe it was a good cry....happy cry....

happy tuesday.... mwa jacq

that was just way cool..... i'm gonna try to nutshell it but she is worth blogging about for sure.....

i asked her is she had a good weekend she said yes it was her daughters b-day... at the same time i was asking her if they partied like rock stars... she was telling me she went and saw her headstone....

her baby girl was diagnosed with leukemia at age 3 and they gave her 6 mos to live... after about 3 years her baby still alive and no matching marrow mom got pregnant to try have a match... her son wasn't....she had her tubes tied 3 weeks after he was born...i asked her why?? if he wasn't a match... she told me she had had her girl and her boy and was content...

her girl passed at age 8... i asked her how she dealt with that... the knowing that she was going to lose her first born.....she told me that she had done what she could and she had to let it go... she couldn't control anything but she could make sure that since her daughter was going to pass she could live her life to the fullest...

she was just so you and so peaceful... so content... so okay with stuff... to me that is i don't even know but... i do know some of you will understand what i'm rattling about....

i truly hope that someday i get there too... and btw she (the daughter) has a day that is celebrated that is dedicated to only her... parade and all....

happy monday... mwa jacq

p.s. mom's tubes tied 7 years ago and mom's 4 mos pregnant with a girl...she's thinking about naming her miracle!!!