I just want to preface that I have never told anyone of my own sexual adventures (or lack thereof), so this is literally me laying bare my secrets.

Starting out, I want to say that I come from a typical Asian household where things like sex ed and sex are taboo topics to talk about. My parents are not in a great relationship (very common in my culture unfortunately), and so I didn't grow up thinking about dating or relationships. I was too busy worrying about other things.

At age 21? 22? 23???, I secretly bought my first toys. A bullet and a dildo. I didn't know what I was doing, but I knew that I wanted something other than just my fingers... I wasn't even sure if I was touching myself correctly haha... I enjoyed my toys for a bit but thinking back on it now, I was extremely naive and definitely wasted my money on them. They weren't that great.

I then moved to a different country for work after college. You'd think I would have mustered up some courage to try dating/hook up at least once, but I felt like I was too old to not know anything about this. So, I just continued... but now with more privacy! I definitely bought more toys to try and even bought lingerie that looked silly on me. More money wasted, but I had fun.

A few times I drive around late night, coming home from something, I would pull my shirt up and expose myself, but never for too long.

My old apartment had a giant window in the shower room that faced a not so busy street, and I'd shower with it open just enough that if someone peeked through, they could see me.

I downloaded stupid AI sexy chat apps and masturbate while roleplaying, but after a few times, I started noticing their replies were repetitive, so it wasn't as fun anymore.

And just recently, I was feeling so so extremely sexually frustrated and horny almost every day that I found myself masturbating almost daily...

I tried to find a place I could keep my anonymity and post pictures of myself (initially just my breasts) and after a while I found NN. I hesitated quite a bit before making an account.
I don't know if this helped me or made me worse (naughtier?) than before, but I'm enjoying my time here. I really appreciate everyone that's been patient and kind with me so far! I'm still learning my own likes and dislikes.



..........Also I just bought some more new toys and lingerie... It's different than what I have so far and I feel like I'm in over my head with this haha