I am not by any means a religious person.
There are a few people I have been missing, those who have moved on, left this world.
Those I would love to connect with but am not sure I can.
Several of them were very religious.
I think I might go.
Sit in a church,
if nothing else I will enjoy an hr of peace.
Best case scenario I will connect again.
Nothing to lose, everything to gain,
ju

shall pass



feeling graphic,
ju

the diversity this world and this site brings, there really is something to be said for going home.
We have a constant opportunity to interact with the globe here and elsewhere online. We are a very fortunate group to be exposed to so much so easily. This exposure brings us knowledge generations before couldn't have imagined. I would hope with this knowledge comes acceptance and tollerance.
In this huge web we dwell in more often than not we meet people outside of our geographic area and perhaps outside of our comfort zone.
We meet, we learn and we accept, if we are wise, those who are different than we are.
Every now and then we will encounter people we are "familiar" with even if we have met them for the first time.
Technologically our world has shrunk. Psychologically I sometimes wonder if it is all to much to take in.
Three canucks took over chat for a lil bit tonight, we didn't intend to exclude anyone. We just happened to connect to what was familiar.
Exploring is good, remembering your roots is also good.
Ju

that hacking away at a snow bank and flinging it all over the drive way to make it melt makes summer come faster?
It must because I have been doing it since I was a kid and my kids do it too!
Watching the weather change before my eyes,
ju

My daughters appointment was today. We got there on time but then had to wait, which is typical with many Dr's but not usually mine. We flipped thru all the magazines in the waiting room before being called in.
I could hear him having a long chat with the patient in the other room and got up after a few minutes to look out the window.
This is when it got interesting. I must have missed what happened initially but what I did see was a woman in a brand new white car fly around the parking lot to confront a woman in a blue van. The woman in the van opened her window when the woman in the white car came over. You could tell they were having a heated argument when out of nowhere white car woman reaches in to bitch slap ms blue van.
White car then took of at a run to her car and got in just in time with blue van and who I assumed to be her mom in hot pursuit.
Blue van was so mad she kicked in the door of the brand new white car, then she got back in her van while her "mom" stayed to holler at white car. Eventually "mom" got back in the van and white car pulled up right behind the van so they couldn't move.
Blue van then got out and marched into the clinic. This is when pretty much everyone in the parking lot felt they had to get involved. White car decided to move, so when blue van came out she was backing out ready to leave when the police showed up.
This is when the Dr. decided to grace us with his presence. He gave us a sort of timid hello, we turned and told him he had missed the fight and that the police had just showed up.
Next thing he has his nose pressed to the window while we describe what happened.
Eventually we did get down to business and my daughter has been referred to an allergist. We go there at the end of the month.
By the time we were leaving the clinic a second police car had arrived. If we didn't have a bus to catch I'd have stayed to see the end.
You just never know what you are going to see if you look out the window,
ju

dinner with a friend.
Bbq is up and running.
Basket is well hidden from a certain suburian.
blinks are lasting longer than my eyes are open,
gnight,
ju

my baby turns 12 tomorrow.
Where the hell did the time go?
Prepping for the party,
ju

I make acquaintances easily.
I do not make friends easily.
Sometimes it will take minutes before I allow you into my world. Instinct and circumstance have in general worked well for me.
Sometimes it takes much, much longer.
In most cases it isn't because we have issues with each other it is just a case of we haven't had for whatever reason the opportunity to interact.
My NN friends list means nothing in the true sense of the word. I don't give a shit who adds me, you request, I will add.
What does matter are the people I have chosen and who have chosen me to spend real time with.
Real friends don't need acknowledgement in cyber space, they know they have a place in my life.
I made a new real friend tonight, after many months of saying hi, we had a great conversation.
Quietly blessed.
Some you will hear about some you will never know.
I know where my friends are and they know where I am,
that is more than enough,
ju

how are you?
Is always a question that stops me cold in chat.
I never really know how to answer.
Did they read my blog? do they really care? (not bloody likely) Is it an easy way to start a converstation?
It is an innocuous but loaded question?
You can reply, I'm OK, good, fine etc and ask how the inquirer is doing OR
You can be honest and tell em how you really feel. (which is most often NOT what the enquirer wanted to hear)
It always amazes me that some people can say "I'm shitty" and the world comes to a stand still while everyone tries to find out what is wrong and offer a ton of advice.
The same question can be asked of another and the honest reply is totally ignored.
I have a theory for this.
There are some that will always be "needy" and people love to feel better about themselves and so will allow the "needy" one to occupy the spotlight (for lack of a better word).
It allows people to feel better about themselves, in control, and knowing they are doing better than others.
Then there is the flip side.
The people that are strong and in control, the way you wish you could be. These people are scary. They can shake you right to the core if they say they aren't doing well.
You begin to think if that person can't hold it together then I don't stand a chance.
Hi, how are you?
Isn't a simple question, it is a very complex one and I think before we ask it we should really ask our selves if we really want to know.
Thoughtfull,
ju

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sigh,
ju