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The Dragonfly

Once, in a little pond, in the muddy water under the lily pads,
there lived a little water beetle in a community of water
beetles. They lived a simple and comfortable life in the pond
with few disturbances and interruptions.

Once in a while, sadness would come to the community when one of
their fellow beetles would climb the stem of a lily pad and
would never be seen again. They knew when this happened; their
friend was dead, gone forever.

Then, one day, one little water beetle felt an irresistible urge
to climb up that stem. However, he was determined that he would
not leave forever. He would come back and tell his friends what
he had found at the top.

When he reached the top and climbed out of the water onto the
surface of the lily pad, he was so tired, and the sun felt so
warm, that he decided he must take a nap. As he slept, his body
changed and when he woke up, he had turned into a beautiful
blue-tailed dragonfly with broad wings and a slender body
designed for flying.

So, fly he did! And, as he soared he saw the beauty of a whole
new world and a far superior way of life to what he had never
known existed.

Then he remembered his beetle friends and how they were thinking
by now he was dead. He wanted to go back to tell them, and
explain to them that he was now more alive than he had ever been
before. His life had been fulfilled rather than ended.

But, his new body would not go down into the water. He could
not get back to tell his friends the good news. Then he
understood that their time would come, when they, too, would
know what he now knew. So, he raised his wings and flew off
into his joyous new life!


~Author Unknown~

So the dragonfly symbolizes the spirit of loved ones who have passed on. I firmly believe in the spirit world.

43 weeks ago today, 10 months on Thursday, my oldest brother passed away that the age of 39 from and aortic aneurysm that dissected between his heart and abdomen.

That Friday after he passed away, he came home. He sat on the frame of the door for about 2 hours, long enough for all of us to see him, long enough for the hubby and I to get up and go out to see him. He then moved on, to the rest of the family I believe. That same morning another dragonfly landed on my youngest niece's shoulder. Since he passed away, we see dragonflies more often.

We used the dragonfly story on his remembrance cards.

He is always with us in subtle little ways and we will never forget him.

Why is it that your friends tell you they like your pics or certain pics, but they won't leave a single comment on any of them?

Yet you go view someone else's pics that are of similar images and there's comments on them....

Wtf?

It kinda irritates me, I know I shouldn't take it personal....but is that not what ppl are really here for?

Kinda makes me want to use my premium and just take my pics down.

how to tell my parents that we're getting divorced. Any ideas or suggestions?

I've blogged about this numerous times now and it seems to have been every 3-6 months, I'm not happy in my marriage. I want it to stop!! I really do want a divorce!! I'm just having a hard time telling him so, our 2nd anniversary is on the 15th and I don't want to cause friction before then, but the longer I wait the sicker I become because of all the stress. Every time I've had issues, he always ends up resorting back to his games and porn. I know porn is natural, especially for guys, but to the extent he looks at it and downloads it, isn't so natural for being married. Just 2 weekends ago I went to bed around 12-1am and woke up at almost 5am and he was still up playing games and I said he should come to bed. I got up that morning and checked my email on his computer, he left it on, and I minimized his game, only to find that he had been watching porn videos while I was sleeping.

Lately I do not want him to touch me, I don't really want to kiss him, not to mention his porn addiction makes me feel inadequate so we don't really have much of a sex life either.

I just want to be happy and loved. I don't see a change happening here at all.

with my laptop. It worked just fine last night, but tonight when I turned it on and went to do my "normal" closing of programs I don't want to use and starting up those I do want to use, it freezes. Freezes to the point that I have to hold the power button to shut it off, and I did this not once, twice, three times, but like 6 or 7 times. I finally gave up with it for the night, hopefully it works better tomorrow!!

THIRTY!!! Yes, I turned 30 today. It was a pretty good day, a few downer moments, but good.

Got my nieces and nephew, seen my middle nephew who also turned 8 today!

Had a pretty good couple days. REALLY good day at work yesterday (which is not normal for me being at work!!) and today was good too!!!

nauseous (sp)....wish I felt better b/c this feeling sucks...gonna be an early night tonight.

on the first (most recent) page of my blogs. So much of the last few entries I have posted are kinda starting to surface/repeat all over again. My hubby still plays his games all the time and to add to it, he's unemployed right now. I still feel like a maid and a big part of me feels like I'm his mom without being his mom (picking up after him, asking him for help with things almost all the time)...Maybe he just needs to read my blogs to see how I feel. I know I should just talk to him, but I just feel like I will clam up and not get everything out on the table. I do still need to make that list and/or write him a letter to open his eyes on the subject... I have commented to him once that I feel like I'm his mom b/c of picking up after him...he got mad at me for it and I know I said it out of frustration on my part, but I wouldn't have said it if I didn't feel like it was true.... So there's my rant again...

considering a hiatus from the online world other checking email and banking online....