if this is worth blogging about, but it has be so pissed off that I should try venting this way.

So here it is...

My 3rd oldest brother and his now ex-wife had their divorce finalized last august and he's since been getting every other weekend with his daughter.

My god, this isn't even the beginning of it but anyways.

So in the visitation agreement he said he wanted one week a month in the summer as well as his every other weekend, which has been going good. But his first week with her started at noon on Fathers Day and goes until this coming Sunday.

What has me so pissed off? Monday I took her to his house (she stays the night here on the nights he works)and I got there and who's there? My niece's mom! Great....another way for her to check up on my brother.

Told him on Monday that she needed to go home and not spend the night, find out Tuesday evening that she did stay the night.

What has me really pissed off more than Monday, she was there again today when I took my niece over there.

I bitched at my brother (may not be my place, but I care about my niece and her well being) about her being there and I said that she needs to go home. I told him they're just confusing my niece.

A year or so ago when they were married and arguing all the time and what not, my niece would grind her teeth at night because of all the stress they put on her. I think if this keeps up with them, she's gonna start being stressed out again.


Oh...and my brother had the balls to tell me that he's not gonna go online and meet someone 5,000 miles away. Well at least I don't sit at home and drink myself into oblivion just b/c I have no one here to spend my time with.

So, yea whatever, I don't even know right now.

gonna blog tonight but I decided to check my profile b/c I knew my 3 year anniversary here was coming up.

So here I am, 3 years to the day of being a member of NN. Yay!! Me..lol so yea anyways

and to a certain person....she knows who she is....

You don't need to update him about my blogs, he is very capable of reading them himself....

I'm done going to the dentist for 6 months (well until October anyways) as long as no other problems come up. He decided to leave the medicated filling in for that duration because he didn't want to drill in my tooth and kill it (I didn't either) so he filled the final and 7th cavity I had. Thank you lord! I'm sooo tired of the dentist right now it's not even funny.

On a better note, I've been talking to someone who seems to get me and I just enjoy talking to him whenever I can. I hope that things work out good for me...

Oh, I almost forgot!!! I now have a 2nd job!! My new job is as a receptionist at a salon in our Super Walmart. So far it's only going to be every other weekend but I'm looking at it on the experience side! Maybe now I'll be able to either get in there full time eventually (crosses my fingers) or on the flip side, it might help me get a full time job!! I have to start somewhere and I had my very first interview for a job that I've applied for since graduating from college last may. So yay for me!

get past the people that are supposed to be your closest friends of all, lie to your face repeatedly.

For months I've been lied to about who a friend was "dating" but yet if I didn't spill who I was "dating" at the time, holy crap watch out.

The lies continue and the friendship...doesn't feel like it used to.

I guess I'm a little jealous, kinda hard not to be when they wanted to date me for almost 2 years but I never gave in. But when I did, was too late, the lies had already started but I didn't find out for almost 5 months.

Oh well I guess. Life's a bitch, then you die.

Just gotta try and move on I suppose.

And he knows who he is!!!

get past the people that are supposed to be your closest friends of all, lie to your face repeatedly.

For months I've been lied to about who a friend was "dating" but yet if I didn't spill who I was "dating" at the time, holy crap watch out.

The lies continue and the friendship...doesn't feel like it used to.

I guess I'm a little jealous, kinda hard not to be when they wanted to date me for almost 2 years but I never gave in. But when I did, was too late, the lies had already started but I didn't find out for almost 5 months.

Oh well I guess. Life's a bitch, then you die.

Just gotta try and move on I suppose.

And he knows who he is!!!

the Novocaine wore off holy hell (pardon my wording) did my mouth hurt. I'll be sooo glad when I am done with these freaking cavities but more so wishing I would've just went to the dentist within the last 5 years, oh well too late now.

So I decided to take a nap b/c my mouth hurt and I had a headache (got it at the dentist) went to sleep around 7pm and woke up about 45 minutes ago at 9:30pm...I'm kinda ready to go back to bed and I probably would've stayed if I could've guaranteed it wouldn't wake me up b/c I was hungry. But I ate supper too, it was about 11 hours of not eating, most of the latter b/c my mouth was numb then sore..now not as sore *phew*

On another note, a musical one. I LOVE the new song "Bleeding Love" by Leona Lewis. OMG, if you haven't heard it you should and no, it's not country, I believe it's R&B but nonetheless an awesome song..

Another visit to the dentist today, this time I had the 3 cavities on the right side filled. It took 2 shots of Novocaine to completely numb my mouth, I could feel some of the drilling in one of my teeth. So yea, I'm still numb and this sucks, it's hard to drink and definitely hard to eat anything, can't really. Gotta wait probably another 2 hours b4 the numbness goes away.

And the bill....keeps increasing *sigh*

..to the dentist, this time was just x-rays and a cleaning.

The bad part? I have 5 more cavities and the estimate is $651...that's not including the $127 today and the remaining $57 from the first visit.

So I get to go next week and get either the 2 others on the left side or the 3 on the right side drilled and filled...grrrrr

So yea, I really hate the dentist right now. I wish I had been going within the last 5 years but that doesn't always guarantee that I'd be cavity free.

I think once all is said and done (hopefully soon!), my mouth is gonna cost me a total of at least $1k and the worst part...it's all coming out of my pocket :|....

/me sighs with a headache in the works...

going to the dentist after not going in 5 years really sucks. What I thought and was hoping was just a cracked tooth that they could fill, turned out to be a big bad cavity. So they numbed my face and waited a little to make sure I was all numbed up, then they drilled a lot out b/c there was a lot of bacteria (almost down to the gum area of the tooth) and then they put in a medicated filling. Hopefully that helps b/c if it doesn't I am looking at having to have it extracted or having a root canal, neither of which I want to have done.

And next week I get to go back in and have all of my teeth cleaned *crosses fingers that there are no more cavities*.

And in 4 weeks I get to go back in again, hopefully not before, and have this tooth's filling removed and replaced with a permanent filling *crosses fingers that this medicated filling clears it up*.

Other than having to go through all of this, the worst part is paying for it all out of pocket. I only work part time so I don't have insurance and it'd cost me more to buy insurance than it would to just pay the dentist.

Today alone cost me $117. Next week when I get them x-rayed and cleaned, barring no more cavities or anything else extra, it'll cost me $127 and that still isn't including the 4 week visit and what that's gonna cost me.

/me sighs...