srebbew's blog post - just my thoughts for today

Tuesday, March 26, 2013, 11:06:10 AM

On the 14th June 2011 my mother passed away after a long hard fight with cancer.... She knew that day it was going to happen looking back at everything.

Today, 26th March, would have been her birthday and my parents Wedding Anniversary. (My day was shrewd had them on the same day so he couldn't forget them...lol) On their wedding day some 46 years ago it snowed!!! Yes they had a white wedding in more than one way....

Last year was the first year of her birthday without her being around on her birthday and it didn't affect me at all.... This year (if its due to the weather (all the snow) or not) it is effecting me quite a lot. Even writing this is difficult, I have to keep stopping to pull myself together. (I am at work after all crying for no apparent reason could be seen as a little mad)

I miss my mum a whole lot and there are things going on in my life at the moment I would so of loved to be able to talk to her about. She was always the voice of reason and put me in my place.

Last year I ran 14.5miles to raise money for charity in memory of her and this year I was to do a 100 mile bike ride in one day but, due to health reason this has had to be put on hold until next year. I think this, the snow and other factors have all contributed to me missing her a lot of late.

For those who say it gets easier with time... it doesn't... you always miss the ones you love and who loved you unconditionally...

To my mum: I will always love you and always miss you.

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Whispermyname on 26-Mar-13 11:10:23

Sweetheart that was beautifully written. It's not that it gets easier with time as such...just that we learn to cope xxxx

aussiedeb on 26-Mar-13 11:12:18

Hugs my friend... xxx

dannyboy1966 on 26-Mar-13 15:25:09

Gopd bless you and your mum hun.. xxxxxxxx

tight_wet_lips on 26-Mar-13 20:26:39

It does get easier, it just takes more time for some. My Dad passed in 07. I still have trouble

Safire13 on 27-Mar-13 1:34:05

I agree with you sweetheart it doesn't get easier it's just that your ability to cope improves over time ....great big hugs my dear sweet friend and you know my shoulder and ear are always here for you *hugs* xxxxxx

Madame_Bovary on 27-Mar-13 7:14:01

Oh Sreb, big hugs. When you lose someone it leaves you with a big hole in your life, not your heart. She is with you always. As for the crying without reason, it is obvious there was a reason. Missing your Mum. It doesnt get easier, just different. xoxoxox