srebbew's blog post - THis week is going to be tuff!!!

SS if I don't lose weight this week this will be the reason but I assure you I will be back at you next week young lady... lol

Wednesday is what would have been my mums Birthday and my mum and dads Wedding anniversary... and I miss her....

So does my dad obviously but he wont show it. He is of the era where men were men and did not show they're emotions. Well I normally go and see him on a Monday and a Thursday and at a weekend if I can, but this week I cant go on Thursday and although tonight he will probably say he doesn't want to see me on Wednesday I am going to just turn up talk about the football, the sports relief dogs and anything else we can think of just to take our minds of the day a little.

Been thinking about my mum a lot of late... Life in general makes me do things like that sometimes, how I miss her smile and her swift left foot... her cooking (Why is it your mums cooking is always the best in the world and no one can get close to it..lol) I miss a lot about her and I know my dad does to but his way of coping is to just remember and not talk so I respect that and just be there for him and a little for me... I love my dad, he can be a stubborn, grumpy old git some times, but he understands me and I understand him so we get along really well. Even better since mum passed, I spent the whole evening before she died with both of them and then the whole two days after was just me and my dad doing what needed to be done and talking to each other, no real subjects just talking. We both grew stronger and closer together over those three days than I think we have ever been.

Damn I am rambling now...lol, you know what it feels good to write it down though. Anyone that knows me well know I don't do emotion, (throw over from my dad I suppose), so writing this just clears the mind a little.

If you have read this all the way down and not fallen asleep then you are a brave person but thank you... Oh well lets get this day over skittles and a couple of hours with my dad tonight a great way to start the week.

Big hugs to you all have a great week and live life to the full.

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Till next time.

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