suthernlover's blog post - Should I finish this and mail it ?

I start out with her name.

This is hard to write.

The card I picked out, because it comes so closely to how deeply my feeling run for you. But it is only close and does not come as close as I'd like.

I remember the first time seeing you. Not the day or the circumstances but how I felt. Up until June I knew my place as a patient. No more or less, friendly, lingering just a few extra moments to be near you. But it was only a fantasy, that is until you make it real.

I know how much shit you've been through and how confused and twisted it must be for you, just being there, living in your situation. I've seen you knotted up inside and resigned to accept a less than satisfactory marriage.

I've compounded things (and maybe I am again) But I feel that I must put down how I feel.

There is nothing that makes me happier that hearing from you. Either by text or a phone call fills me with all manner of hope and my soul takes flight, and I listen to whatever you say, no matter how long the call is or the topics, and I crash to Earth with a thud when the call ends. Mondays or Wednesdays nites are special because I just might have a conversation with you. Your random calls or text messages during the week catch me off guard and pleasantly so. I can never get enough.

My office visits have become a ploy to get alone with you, hugs and kisses are my sole reason for my trips to the Doctors Office.

The in between time is pure misery! I want to be with you talking, touching, and kissing you .......

<<< I haven't finished this and want input on whether I should or not, mail it or not.